the nominee

the certificate for the nomination i got from the department.

btw, i did not win the first place, the reason why i only have the certificate. lolz

and i am not expecting anything in return for all the work i've done. :D

Team Building 2010

came back last night from an overnight team building of Production Services, including - ServiceDesk, Service Implementation, Operations, Infrastructure and the Solution Support team. kinda tiring coz the travel time from the city to the resort is almost 5 hours and the bus is moving so slow.. tsktsk..

had a good time and met some people from the event. and yes, there's a lot of activity and most of them are indoors! so how can the team building experience with that? how to practice it? oh well, maybe my idea of team building is different from the one they know.

now, my body has some parts that is complaining. yes, i have body ache. lolz. i ran, i jumped, i shout, and all. and this is the effect of the two day event. hope to get more sleep later. work can wait. i'll start working again tonight.

david.edward signing off.....

half day and badminton

went to cyberia to play badminton with the gang - lace, dex, kai, fatz, and dianini.. yep. konti lang kami na pumunta. but still okay naman ung game. hehehe... kahit papano.. we started around 7:45 kasi 2 pa lang kami ni dex dun eh.

after that, kumain muna sila sa "the walk". kwentuhan to the max na naman.. hehe.. then i noticed na 10:30 na pala. so tinanong ko si fatz kung uwi na ba sila after kumain kasi sabay na lang ako. so un, nakaalis kami ng place ng mga 11 pm na. then after that nasa bahay ako ng 11:30 then i turned my laptop on and went online sa communicator for my officemates to know that i am online na. but after that naligo muna ko and kumain.. hehehe..

half day.. nung nasa the walk pa lang kami, tinext ko na si kuya na maghahalfday ako and work from home na lang. so kaya ako sa bahay nagwork till 3 AM kasi nga half day.

nakatulog ako ng 4:30, i think medyo matagal din. and nagising ako ng 10:30. so meaning i already had 6 hours of sleep, but then sabi ko no, need ko pang matulog and to take a rest. and then i went back to my dreamland. nagising ako 2:30 na. hahaha.. plus 4 hours. so ngaun i have a total of 10 hours sleep. later tutulog ulit ako cguro mga 5. :)

david.edward signing off.....

wala na namang tulog

okay, cge meron. 2 hours.. but how my body would be able to stand up 8 hours and do my work with just two hours of sleep? okay, cge nakaupo. pero ung mag isip ka ng wala kang tulog? patay kang bata ka.. actually, gusto ko ng umuwi at humiga sa kama ko.. :(

inaantok na talaga ako at iyong mata ko nagluluha na naman and i know na ang reason is because i lack of good sleep. teka bakit nga ba ako kulang sa tulog kahapon? kasi po we watched the movie - Inception. eh ang haba ng pelikula ni Leonardi Di Caprio kaya nakauwi kami sa bahay ng around 3:30 na, then nakatulog naman ako ng mage-8 na ata dahil di ako makatulog agad. tsktsk..

so un, right now I am just finishing off all my tickets so that I can go home around 8 am. tapos tulog na ko dapat ng 10. :)

birthday ko na pala bukas.. lolz

david.edward signing off.....

quota na

walang laro ng badminton kahapon, hindi daw nakapagpa reserve ng court. so okay lang naman dahil tinatamad din ako kahapon.

balak ko sanang matulog na lang ulit pero hindi naman ako nakatulog hanggang sa pumasok na kami sa office ng 10:30. sayang din ung oras na iyon, but then natulog na naman ako sa bus. as in ung malalim na tulog. dito din sa office, twice akong natulog sa cube ko. pero idlip lang un, mga 20 minutes na cguro pinaka matagal. alam mo ung feeling na sobrang antok ka at hilo ka sa antok? ganun ako kanina. kaya umidlip muna ko kahit papano..

ngaun, tapos ko na mga trabaho ko. as in wala na kong pending. so it means kahit natutulog ako d2 sa cube ko, alam ko kaya kong gawin. :p

and i think i've had enough for the day. more than 10 tickets na eh. quota na kumbaga.

4 more days before my birthday..bwahahha

david.edward signing off.....

survey..

wala pa rin akong matinong mapost ngaun kasi antok na naman ako.. waaa.. ano ba ginawa ko kanina? hmm... ah, mineet namin ung dati naming landlord kasi nag compute na kami ng mga balances, it has been 2 months na rin after we left the unit. so un, bumaba kami sa my pool area then nameet nga namin si Raymond. so nagcompute ng mga remaining balances like ung electricity, ung water bill, then pati ung palinis ng aircon..

after that, balik ulit dito sa unit. facebook lang ata ginawa ko and then nagbabad ako sa bathtub. ah, nagvideoke pala kami, ay mali pala - ako lang pala kumanta.. hehehe..

ah, naglaro pa pala ko ulit ng generals.. mga naka 2 or tatlong games ata ako. then we had our dinner kani kanila lang.. so ngaun, im just answering questions from a friend regarding sa survey then after that tulog na ko kasi maaga pa ko bukas sa office.. hay

david.edward signing off.....

pagod ang katawang lupa

at ang patunay? nakatulog ako ng mula before 1 at nagising ng 09:40 ng gabi.. walang gising gising.. dire diretsong tulog.. actually feeling ko nga 6 pm pa lang nung nagising ako, dahil gusto ko pang matulog. heheh..

pano ba naman, nung isang araw 30 minutes lang tulog ko before ako pumasok ng office. so pagod pagod na ko cyempre, wala ng energy tapos my investigation pa ko na ubos dugo sa utak. so morning di pa rin ako tapos sa investigation, nasa kin na lahat ng need ko - sample input and output file, mapping specs, map models etc. nung 9 am my meeting pa raw sa migration na mangyayari sa linggo at dahil ako na naman ang mapalad na nilalang, umattend kami.. nagugutom na ko during this time, pero wala ng time.. nagmamadali na ung my issue eh halos mahilo hilo na nga ako sa details at sa gutom, nagkasabay sabay na..

nakauwi ako ng 10 am na bus (10:20 sa waiting shed dumaan ung bus) at buti na lang nag expressway cya at before 11 nasa bahay na ko.

so kumain lang ako sandali, nagsend pa rin ng email then nugn wala ng reply, okay so ito na iyon. tapos na.. pasok sa kwarto, bukas ng aircon at boom! higa na ang modelo. in a matter of 2 minutes black out na ko..

so nagising ako ng 9:40 dahil my tumatawag sa phone ko, si housemate. gumising na raw ako at anong oras na.. hahaha.. maaga kasi ako usually nagigising at nasa living room lang the normal days - nagtatrabaho.. lolz..

so ngayon, tinatamad ako.. nag investigate na naman ako then my 2 pa kong tickets na tamad ko talagang gawin.. word of the day - TAMAD..

so pano dito na lang muna, sana weekend na para makapag pahinga na rin ako kahit papano at makatulog.. ay shocks,. hindi rin pala puede kasi my gagawin sa linggo.. sana bayaran nyo ko ng malaki dito ah..bwahahah...

david.edward signing off.....

idlip

idlip lang ang nagawa ko imbes na tulog.. oo, nahihirapan akong matulog kanina. at anong oras na ako humiga di ba pagkakain. after 30 minutes pa ata ako nakatulog. at nung nakatulog naman ako, oh well, ang saya. tumunog cellphone ko at my nareceived akong bulletin mula sa mga taga EMEA. cute cute.

ngayon, ang bigat ng balikat ko. sana mkapag perform ako mamaya sa duty ko. hahaha

david.edward signing off.....

nasita.. my naninita

nag online ako regarding sa work ko ngayon dahil ung SD tumawag na naman kanina kahit hindi ako ung on call for the day. so ano pa magagawa ko, pinasa ko ung ticket sa kasama ko. nakaleave nga ako eh di ba. hehehe

well, back to the original story. nagbasa ako ng mga mails. my mga nakita lang naman ako or rather i say napuna na naman. kinausap ko si mich, iyong girl na bago and i said lahat ng mga nakita ko. for me kasi wala naman un, parang im saying lang this naman para sa kanila and for the team. and security purposes, tapos my nag email. hehehe..

Salamat sa advice, pero alam ko din naman ang gingawa ko. Sabihin mo sakin san ako nagkamali sa pagcompose ko ng email. Kung titingnan mo ung nakaattach na email. Step by step ang pagkkadescribe ko kay -. Alam ko rin na somehow technical na tao si -.



Regarding sa email ni mitch (Password issue), kung titingnan mo, password to ng pagaccess sa server ng Logis-air at ang nakacopy lang eh yung Logis-Air support bukod sa caller. Walang issue sa side natin. Kung ang concern mo eh baka maccess ng ibang tao ang server ng Logis-air eh sorry. Next time, hindi namin ippaste yung part na yun. Pero wala kong nakkitang problema sa side natin.


Kung may issues ka sa pagttrabaho ko, magusap tayong dalawa or kung gusto mo isama natin si -.

so iyon. yan ung email nya. ako naman sumagot din.. hahaha.. hays. basta iyon. baka magmeeting na lang one of these days dahil sa mga paninita ko. pasensya na. perfectionist lang.. sana makahanap na ko ng bagong trabaho. :)
 
david.edward signing off.....

SL

I will be taking my sick leave tonight. dapat kasi kahapon kaya lang nag comment ung amo ko sa facebook status ko na uminom daw ako ng vit c and go back to sleep. wala namang masama dun, nahiya lang talaga ako.. hahaha.. so pumasok ako kahapon at nag ubos ng ticket, qinuota ko na. tapos mga after lunch, bagsak na lolo mo. i am sleeping in my cube na. patay! buti na lang nasa gilid ako ng isang malaking room. at pag nakasubsob ako sa cube ko hindi halata ng mga tao unless they will go to my place to check me out which is hindi mangyayari.. hahaha.. at one more thing, buti si amo is located dun sa kabilang wing. so lusot pa rin..

mabigat pa rin kasi ung katawan ko and i know na my sinat pa sa loob. i just badly need a rest. a complete sleep. kasi kanina 6 pm pa lang nagising na ko. ang lakas kasi ng ulan sa labas. as in parang signal no 2 na ulan sa tin. kaya iyon.

ngayon, i already sent my email that i will be in SL tonight to my team mates and nagpaalam na rin ako sa senior ko. baka itulog ko na lang ito later.

so pano un na muna.. iyong pics di ko pa talaga ma upload.. nakakainis! bwahahah..

david.edward signing off.....

D.E. is sick

i feel that i am sick. yes. i do also experience this kind of thing. eh kasi naman when i woke up this morning medyo masakit na ulo ko. but then i keep on enjoying the day dito sa bahay.

i already installed generals on my newly reformatted win7 laptop. inayos ko na rin ung outlook nun so i can download mails from gmail.

okay, back to what i feel right now. medyo mainit pakiramdam ng katawan ko and hindi cya ung normal na temperature. i dont know kung dahil lang ba ito sa kulang pa ko sa tulog or what. but i already took one tablet ng biogesic and i really hope that it will fade away in an hour or two so that i can go to work tonight. dami ko pa namang gustong gawin at iquota sa trabaho.. ikaw na ang buhay ang dugo pag maraming ginagawa,.,. hahaha..

iyong pictures di ko pa rin mapost.. iniisip ko nga alin gagamitin ko eh, office laptop or personal laptop.. bwahaha

david.edward signing off.....

sabado na!!!

buti naman, at least weekend at makakapag pahinga na rin.. and one more thing, that on call thing is now completed! the hell week has passsssed.. bwaahahha.. so I can sleep now without worrying anyone will call me "anytime".... so I can enjoy my sleeping time.. sigh.. good to think about that.. hehehe...

and i need to do the laundry pa pala.. ahahah.. oo mahigit isang buwan na naman akong hidni naglaba.. since before ako umuwi ng Manila ng last week ng June.. and makalat din ung room ko, need ko pa ayusin ung maleta ko..hehehe..

so ngaun, one more hour before umuwi.. sana 8 na para makauwi ng maaga at maenjoy ang sabado.. :)

david.edward signing off.....

inis...

im still having issues with some new team members.. i dont know kung dahil lang ba sa akin ito or the way they really work.. the trainings has been done. pointers has been pointed out. the important things has been said and yet they keep on committing the same mistakes over and over again.. and that what really makes me feel bad.

or, maybe the thing that really make me feel bad is the rejection i feel from them. i know that i am brutally frank, and i can say the meanest word and degrade you to the nth level, but when I see that you accepted your error and you are trying your best to cope up, I would be more than glad to see you. Even though you have flaws you are trying your best to meet the right procedures and etc.

but i have this feeling that this person is rejecting the idea that i say all the error that they committed. that they take it negatively.. what could be my meanest answer to that?

oo, ang dami mong mali. paulit ulit na lang.. how many times do we need to tell you that you should be doing this and that. do you know na dahil sa mga ginagawa nyo the team has been put into bad light? dumaan na kami sa matinding unos. naramdaman na namin ang magpagulong gulong sa ibaba. narinig na rin namin lahat ng masasamang salita. naayos naman namin ang trabaho namin at napatunayang kaya namin sa pagtutulong tulong naming 4 or 5. isang taon na ang dumaan at okay naman na kami pero biglang tumbling na naman dahil sa mga ginawa nyo. alam mo iyon.. nakaka depress kung alam nyo lang.. unang tanong? hindi nyo ba talaga alam ang ginagawa nyo? kung ganon, pano kayo nakapasa sa interview? tingin ko naman alam nyo naman at my idea kayo kung anong trabaho meron kami? sana naman tinignan nyo ung sarili nyo kung qualified ba talaga kayo or hindi.. kasi bakit ko pa ipipilit ang sarili ko sa lugar na hindi naman ako handa at hindi ko naman kaya. oo. puede namin kayong tulungan, pero wala rin ung pagtuturo na un kung paulit ulit na lang. nasa inyo pa rin iyon kung papano nyo gagawin ang trabaho nyo.. eh ang nangyayari pati kami nadadamay sa mga maling nagagawa nyo,.. konting isip, tyaga, pagpupursige, at pagtanggap sa kamalian minsan.. ang hirap kasi nasabihan lang ng mali, you take it so negatively.. as in sobra.. oo halata ko.. hindi naman ako tanga. i gave up. ayoko ng mga ganyang uri ng tao. mas magiging mabaet pa ko kung nakita ko na tinanggap mo ung kamalian mo na yun tapos nag eeffort ka na matama un.. eh hindi eh.. parang feeling mo binabagsak ka na.. siguraduhin mo lang talaga na hindi kami lalagapak ng sadsad na sadsad, dahil kapag nangyari yan, babaligtad mundo nyo dahil sa gagawin ko.. 

the answer above was so bad.. i can be the meanest person you'll ever met pag ginalit nyo ko.. oo tanga ako minsan, pero naiinis ako sa mga taong tanga at mayabang.. un lang!

i dont know kung may makakabasa nito sa office or what, pero this is what i feel now and hindi na ko nagiging masaya.. hindi ko naman sinasabing sobrang galing ko, pero i have the responsibility not only to myself but to the whole team to do my best and hindi maging pabigat.. now, ask yourself, are you doing your best? if your answer would be yes , this is what i can tell you - "BUT YOUR BEST WASN'T GOOD ENOUGH"..

this is my blog and i can say what ever i want to say on this.
take it personally and not professionally. deal with it.
david.edward signing off.....

started the week. hmmm.. lazy

oo, tamad.. lazy.. i started this week na tinatamad ako sa ginagawa ko sa trabaho.. cguro ito na rin ung tinatawag na exhausted.. di ko rin alam baka nga.. with all these things happening lately regarding work related, baka nga..

maybe, I will give it another year. ipon muna then go with the plans.. need to find na rin pala ng alternative sa plan na iyon.. hehehe.. i'll think of it, one of these days..

david.edward signing off.....

decisions.. decisions..

minsan ang hirap ding magdecide no.. when the options and the opportunities are already there in front of your face. well, bakit nga ba? kasi you are looking for the better and for the long term goal and yet meron kang gustong balikan.

ano ba kasi iyon? cge, para malinaw ganito.. i am okay with my work. i just so love what I am doing. i can sense fulfillment dun sa ginagawa kong trabaho every night. its a work that full of surprises. you will never know what will happen in one night. there could be a lot of escalations to the higher management and there could be also chillax nights. what I love about this job is I am moving forward with my career. my skills are being hone to be at its best and I am learning a lot of new things. gahaman pa naman ako sa mga ganyan.. bwahaha..

but the issue with my work is the management. its like they dont care what you do in your work, when theres an issue, laging you are to blame. although, they wont said it directly na its your fault because you're not doing your job blah blah, but the words are going back to its main purpose. bkit nangyari iyon? and with the intonation pa na dapat di nangyari un kung nabantayan lang etc etc. you learn because of these incidents. pero ang nakakabadtrip lang is yung mga tao sa taas na hindi naman alam ang ginagawa mong trabaho pero ang lakas manlaglag.. iyong tipong parang alam na alam na kugn ano ung ginagawa mo.. but the truth is - HINDI.

okay, gustong balikan. I'd love to go back to a place wherein magiging magaan ang trabaho especially the people. your boss, your colleagues, and everything else. when I visited GXS office in manila on my recent trip, I just realized how much I miss these people. They are the people na I know I would be in good hands. na I know everyday will be a smooth sailing task. but then I ask again myself - what do I need to accomplish for myself? what are my long term plans? kasi when I decided to go back there, I'll be a developer again and my options will narrow down unlike now na I have different areas na puedeng pasukan..

the decision has been made. i need to save more so whenever i decided to go back, I have my savings with me to back me up. hapiness is a choice. i just need to be happy with my decision. and on the other side, I am thankful for the offer. thinking that they still do want me to work with them makes me happy. hindi pa rin pala ako ganun kasama na katrabaho,., bwaahah

ready to work again

just wanna say that after a 10 days vacation in Manila, I am now back here in KL (just last night) and I am ready to face my responsibility again in my work.

well, thats for now. till then next time.. ^_^

monday again..

its Monday again and the work will start in a few hours and will have a lot of things to do on a Monday night. deploy, training, fix and debug. I hope that I can finish all the stuff within four days.

i still want to sleep before going to work but my body is already active. i want to keep my eyes shut but to no avail. geez!

i'll go to work early tonight so that i can start early on the issues. so, will go back to sleep again, for two more hours.. hehehe

david.edward signing off.....

topaking bata

i still have my topak until now.. hahaha.. ewan ko ba sa sarili ko pag tinotopak ako.. id rather keep my mouth shut and ioopen ko lang cya when I'm talking to other people or pag kakain ako... ganun lang..

hindi pa rin ako nakikipag usap sa mga tao dito sa bahay till ngaun.. nagkukulong lang ako sa kwarto ko and i think it helps a little bit and also talking to other people online. ang weird ko kasi.. hayz..

in a while, I am gonna open my office laptop na naman to do some work which doesn't require me to do on a sunday night.. ewan. nasa sistema ko na kasi un, so what am i going to do...

david.edward signing off..

ACTIONS.. not WORDS...

what will be the importance of a word if it doesn't have any relevant actions? what is a word without a meaning? what if you can say all the best words that a person could hear but then your actions show nothing? okay, not zero percent but lower than what I expected? what now?

it really gets me irritated when I hear or met people like these. I mean, I'd rather be quiet and I will let my work speak for itself and have other people to judge, but for you to be noisy and speak that flowery words, better be careful.

you can have all the grandest words in the world but did you ask yourself if your work also speaks the same?

think again. sometimes, you better shut up. not only for other people but also for your own sake.

david.edward signing off.....

getting better

im getting better and better everyday. as the days passed by, the feeling that I had this week is fading away, little by little. it really helps when you release it to the people around you would know the scenario. people who could understand your situation or the people who are also in the same situation.

I am praying to god to release me from this feeling as this is not a good sign and giving me a not so good feeling about myself and others. and I thank God that He is doing His miracles. I can surpass again this feeling this time.

maybe, I am also a failure. that maybe, there are also expectations from me that I wasn't able to meet. and with that, I humble myself to accept these things that they are under my fault. What I can do is to go back in the game and do better. I just really hope that this imbalance will be equal again at the right time.

david.edward signing off.....