at the airport... again!

here at KLIA now.. just had snack here at McDonalds. waiting for the time the gate will open and from then we can board the plane and then the plane will take off and then will fly in the sky and then will land in NAIA then will get out of the plan, pick up the luggage at the carousel and then will take taxi to take me home!! yipee!! see mama, i can memorize.. ahahhaha..

parang tanga lang ung nasa taas na post eh no.. hehehe.. well, anyways, im here nga at KLIA para sa flight ko pabalik ng Manila.. after mga 4 hours nasa Manila na ko ulit.. hehehe

so pano, pila muna kami sa immigration.. baka mahaba eh, abutin kami ng siyam siyam...

david.edward signing off.....

gising

eto na naman ang sitwasyon na mahirap iwasan.. hayz.. ala sais pa lang ng hapon gising na ko.. waaa.. dapat tulog pa ko nito kasi equivalent nito is 3 AM sa normal working hours.. tstkskt..

so ayan, wala na naman akong nagawa kundi magdownload ng office mails at magcheck ng dapat gawin.. konti lang naman.. hehehe..

three more days and ill be in Manila again.. miss ko na un.. ung gumala.. magkaroon ng sariling oras at naggagala lang sa mga mall depende kung san ko maisipan.. hehehe

kain muna ko kung ano makikita ko sa kitchen.. ^_^

david.edward signing off.....

monday again..

its Monday again and the work will start in a few hours and will have a lot of things to do on a Monday night. deploy, training, fix and debug. I hope that I can finish all the stuff within four days.

i still want to sleep before going to work but my body is already active. i want to keep my eyes shut but to no avail. geez!

i'll go to work early tonight so that i can start early on the issues. so, will go back to sleep again, for two more hours.. hehehe

david.edward signing off.....

topaking bata

i still have my topak until now.. hahaha.. ewan ko ba sa sarili ko pag tinotopak ako.. id rather keep my mouth shut and ioopen ko lang cya when I'm talking to other people or pag kakain ako... ganun lang..

hindi pa rin ako nakikipag usap sa mga tao dito sa bahay till ngaun.. nagkukulong lang ako sa kwarto ko and i think it helps a little bit and also talking to other people online. ang weird ko kasi.. hayz..

in a while, I am gonna open my office laptop na naman to do some work which doesn't require me to do on a sunday night.. ewan. nasa sistema ko na kasi un, so what am i going to do...

david.edward signing off..

morning Sunday!

parang tao lang si sunday no? hahaha.. oh well, as what the title of this post imposed, yes it is Sunday today... im still bored with what is happening lately. bored, frustrated or watsoever you call it, iyon na ung nararamdaman ko.. napapagod na ba ko? hindi pa naman siguro as I am a fighter. fight fight fight!!! pero dapat din naman tignan ang bawat laban. merong mga laban na dapat ituloy ang laban meron naman na dapat ng urungan..

teka, alin bang laban ang kinakaharap ko ngaun? im not sure eh... i have this character kasi na pag medyo napapagod na ko sa laban, instead na makasakit pa ko sa damdamin ng iba, I'd rather quit and find a new game to fight. mahirap din kasi lalo na pag ang standard mo ay iba sa standard na meron sila.

ang hirap din kasi. hindi mo na alam san ka papatungo. kung meron man. isipin mo, ano na ba talaga?
hayz..

at dahil jan, tahimik na naman ako the whole day. nagstart na naman ang topak ko last night. gutom na eh, my gusto akong kainin hindi ko nakain.. oo, brat.. spoiled. you can call me what you want. these are the times na nagpapakabrat at isip bata ako. pagod eh.. galing ng tournament the whole day ng saturday at wala pang tulog mula sa shift.

so kanina, pasta lang ang food sa bahay, eh gusto ko na ng kanin. feeling ko wala na kong lakas at kailangan ko kumain ng kanin. at ung tipong patay gutom mode.. so dahil sa walang kanin, sinabi ko ng hindi ako kakain..

at ang ginawa ko, nagpunta ako sa mall.. kumain sa resto na gusto kong kainan ng manok kagabi.. my take out pa nga eh.. tapos nakabili din ako ng tatlong polo shirt sa G2K at nagturok na naman ng kape sa starbucks.. how i miss manila during these times. alis ako ng bahay, kain sa resto or fast food na gusto kong kainin at kung ano ang trip kong kainin, then nood ng movie at ikot ng ikot sa mall then nood ulit ng movie or maghanap ng mabibili.. iyon ung mga bagay na namimiss ko sa Maynila. cyempre ibang lugar ito at wala dito ung mga pagkain na puede kong ifood trip gaya ng sa Manila.

oh well, this is life.. 4 more working days and I'll be in Manila again.

david.edward signing off.....

ACTIONS.. not WORDS...

what will be the importance of a word if it doesn't have any relevant actions? what is a word without a meaning? what if you can say all the best words that a person could hear but then your actions show nothing? okay, not zero percent but lower than what I expected? what now?

it really gets me irritated when I hear or met people like these. I mean, I'd rather be quiet and I will let my work speak for itself and have other people to judge, but for you to be noisy and speak that flowery words, better be careful.

you can have all the grandest words in the world but did you ask yourself if your work also speaks the same?

think again. sometimes, you better shut up. not only for other people but also for your own sake.

david.edward signing off.....

getting better

im getting better and better everyday. as the days passed by, the feeling that I had this week is fading away, little by little. it really helps when you release it to the people around you would know the scenario. people who could understand your situation or the people who are also in the same situation.

I am praying to god to release me from this feeling as this is not a good sign and giving me a not so good feeling about myself and others. and I thank God that He is doing His miracles. I can surpass again this feeling this time.

maybe, I am also a failure. that maybe, there are also expectations from me that I wasn't able to meet. and with that, I humble myself to accept these things that they are under my fault. What I can do is to go back in the game and do better. I just really hope that this imbalance will be equal again at the right time.

david.edward signing off.....

life's dissapointment

there will come a time in your life when you think that all the things happening around you isn't the way you wanted it to be or you'd expect. there are some expectations that shouldn't be expected as this may bring dissapointment to the person. there are things in life that are really unfair. and with that, we can't do nothing about it.

I am in a point of my life wherein I am seeing the things around me giving me some dissapointment. I know for a fact that I shouldn't be feeling this way. That I should throw the idea of dissapointment as this never gives any good impression nor feeling to one person.

there are also when you don't expect and you see that what is happening around you isn't right. life is unfair as all of us say. yes, it is indeed true in every sense of the word (or rather the quote). Life is totally unfair. but when you think of this imbalance, this is what really life is. this is the fact that we must endure in living in this world. this is reality. this is the true drama of life.

why am I in this state of my life now, if you may ask. I'll be very frank about it. i am seeign issues around me that didn't expect my level of expectation thus giving me this feeling.

I admit that I am a competitive person, I dont like the feeling in the loosing end. And I always try to be in use or on the upper half. A feeling of self satisifaction is a feeling you cant compare with other things. It is a self fulfillment wherein you will be proud of yourself to what you've done. but there comes a time when you think that you are giving too much compared to other people but yet you are receiveing the same amount of recognition or rather same amount of reward.

I know that this shouldn't be an issue after all. it just a personal issue with me. maybe I just need a break. maybe I need to pull myself away from the crowd and have a quality time with my own self. thinking and looking back on all the good memories that somehow will make me feel a little bit better.

this is the thing that I am afraid of. a self imposed standard that even myself is afraid that I can't meet the expectation. yes, sometimes I do expect a lot. when I think that things should be in the proper place and effort given should be given the the right amount of gratitude.

I just hope that this feeling will fade away as there are other people being affected and they bring also other dissapointment to myself. I hope that my judgment is not cloudy these days as I never want to be irradical on my decisions.

I am looking forward on my Manila trip two weeks from now and maybe during that time being, I can think again and re-asses what is happening with my life.

maybe, the best description on this scenario would be - my normal expectations (or what I am doing every day that I give my best effort) are their Outstanding expectations, but the problem is that we are receving the same kind of gold and medal for a work that I have given my best and the work that they do was just below expectations.

I am not asking for any recognition or whatsoever. I just want things to be in their proper place. recognize the right people, give them what is right for them we wont have any issues at all.

this is life. i dont wanna ask again the question I asked myself when I resigned from my previous job cause I might be afraid of the answer from within.

Am I STILL happy???

david.edward signing off.....

another mistaken identity

i was on my way going back to the airport, but before I left Manila that day I went to MOA to meet my officemates before and to have merienda with them. so they told me where to go so we could just meet there. and me having my back pack and my hand carry luggage, strolled the mall to look for the said resto.

you know the Music Hall in MOA? that is where it happened:

ME: looking at the map to locate the stall
Girl: Hi Sir, can I have some of your time.
ME: SMILE lang.
Girl: (thinking na she already got my attention) by the way I am *insert name here* nalimot ko na kasi..
ME: okay.
Girl: by the way sir, are you a filipino?
ME: Yeah
Girl: half american, half filipino? or other nation?
ME: nope, pure filipino.
Girl: ah okay, you dont look like kasi pure filipino.

at dahil sa usapang iyon? naging parte na ko ng UNICEF na nagbibigay tulong kada buwan. for me, that would be fine. it was like helping other and giving back what my Lord God is giving me.

hindi ba talaga ako mukhang filipino lalo na pag my contacts ako? hmm

david.edward signing off.....

the iranian story

this week lang sa supermarket when we did our weekly grocery..

naghahanap na ko ng fresh milk ko sa mga estante, so when I reached sa part ng gatas, my promodizer na nakapwesto.. so kinausap nya ko:

Promodizer: hi sir, are you looking for milk?
Ako: Yep
P: Sir, can I have some minutes of your time cause I see that you we're looking for milk and that you will buy.
A: okay.
sabay abot ng maliit na cup na my gatas
P: this is our product, compared to other brands blah blah
A: okay.. nakatingin pa rin ako sa brand ng fresh milk na binibili ko..
P: ah, by the way sir, are you an Iranian?
A: huh? nope. I am a Filipino..

sabay tumbling ako eh no.. mukha ba ko talgang Iranian? cguro dahil sa balbas ko at napagkakamalan akong Iranian..

at ang ending? hindi ako bumili ng tinda nyang gatas na lasang Bear Brand. at bumili ako sa Fresh Milk na isang bukas lang lagok agad at hindi na kailangan pang timplahin.. hehehe

david.edward signing off.....

sana...

three days ago since my last post. parang nakikita kona tinatamad akong mag post ng kahit na anong entry dito sa blog ko. even the latest trip namin sa Langkawi di ko pa rin nabablog ng matino until now. and I also dont know the reason why. di ko alam kung tinatamad lang talaga ako or wala lang. as in iyong ayaw ng magsulat sa blog ko.

well, I just hope na makapagsulat pa rin ako ng mga dati kong entry dito. sana..

david.edward signing off.....

i love you sabado!

yehey! sabado na rin sa wakas.. and i can rest fully. cyempre, need ko rin naman na matulog lang dahil sa nagpabunot nga ako ng ngipin nung isang araw. isang araw na work from home then pumasok na the following day. adik no. oh well, that much better kesa naman naka tunganga ako di ba. anyhow, last weekend was the trip sa langkawi. maraming naganap na nakakaloko at also ung mga experience na masasabi mong its all worth it. my mga bagong kaibigang natagpuan at nadagdagan na naman ang mga memories na itetreasure sa buhay kasama ng mga kaibigan. iyong mga pictures, nasa facebook account ko. so if we are friends, you can view my albums.

there are also photos not for public consumption. pasensya na, modelo lang.. ahahha.. so un na muna sa ngayon.. need ko ng umuwi din kasi aalis ata kami para bumisita sa bagong panganak na asawa ng kateam namin dito. need naming makita ung baby junior nya.. hehehe..

so pano, till next time and post! sana di na muna ko magbago ng layout ko kasi nakakapagod din naman eh.. hehehe

david.edward signing off.....

magulong lay out

ayan, magulo nga ung layout ng blog ko.. i admit hindi ko pa mafinalize ano ba talagang ung gagamitin ko kasi eh, im still looking sa net ng mga possible na gamitin. so cguro this weekend na lang..^_^

later, ill go to the dentist for extraction. sana nga para matapos na rin kahit papano. ang hirap naman kasi nun di ba.. i mean, ung need ko pang ipaalam na ganito ganyan, blah blah.. so para wala na lang problema di ipagawa na agad. sana maging okay din cya after..:)

so un na muna ngaun, iyong mga ibang kwento saka na..bwahahha

david.edward signing off.....

Langkawi in a note

Today is wednesday, first day of work for this week. Monday is a US holiday and at these times we took an opportunity to go out and explore the places of Malaysia.. rawr! hahaha.. this time we went to Langkawi. had a good day at Pulau Payar - a place where you can swim with the fishes and the shark at the shore. no joke. pero cyempre small sharks lang but still they are sharks!!! lolz..

then we also had a chance to try the cable car!! from the ground of the mountain to the mountain's peek. makalaglag panga at puso ang ride na un..

ngayon, im still having body aches and i need to go to the dentist later. sana walang masyadong tao..

david.edward signing off.....