21st death anniversary

May 27, 1989 when that incident happened in our life. it was a normal beautiful morning. it's like we are prepared for something that might happen. hindi cya ung tipo na sa bahay lang kami for the whole day. nanay prepared us for something, which up to this day sabi ko cguro nga alam nyang that is the last day of her life in this world.

binihisan nya kaming 3 magkakapatid ng pang alis na damit. nakasapatos, ready to go kahit san pumunta. kahit pumunta pa kami sa mga lola ko sa batangas. actually, that morning she is doing her laundry. sa my likod bahay. then kami nasa jeep lang sa harap ng bahay, no idea what will happen that very morning on the 27th of May.

sabi nya magsasampay na daw cya, and ung jeep is nakaharang sa tapat ng bahay kung nasan ung sampayan, ginising nya ung tatay ko. pinagtimpla ng kape at hinalikan sa labi. kita ko iyon sa loob ng jeep. at after nun, nung pina paurong na ung jeep ng tatay ko at ung nanay ko tinaas iyong kawad ng kuryente na sumabit sa jeep, dun naganap ang lahat.

nagulat na lang kami na ung tatay ko bumaba sa driver's seat at pumunta sa pwesto ng nanay ko at hinihila nya, iyong mga tao sa paligid nagtakbuhan na. mga tita ko, mga pinsan ko, kapitbahay at usisero. merong sumigaw sa amin na wag kaming kakapit sa bakal ng jeep.

nakita ko nanay ko na nahila or tumilpon sa my bermuda sa harap ng bahay at kami, isa isang hinatak palabas ng jeep. maya maya ung jeep umalis na at pumunta ng hospital.

makalipas ang ilang sandali, nakabalik na rin sila. and that was the very first time na nakita ko iyong tatay ko na naglulupasay sa loob ng jeep at iyong nanay ko wala ng malay sa my upuan.

they closed all the windows and doors of our house. maya maya, my kurtina na at mga ilaw. iyon na pala iyon.  we lost our mother. dumating ung mga lola ko at tito, tita ko galing batangas. hanggang sa nilibing na nanay ko.

now, it was already 21 years since ung incident na iyon but i can still elaborate what happened on that very day. ng dahil dun, di ko naranasan ano nga ba ang my nanay. what it feels na meron kang kinukulit na nanay mo. na iyong tipong my gusto kang uwian sa probinsya every weekend kasi namimiss mo iyong luto nya or ung mga yakap nya. i really dont know the feeling. sabi nga nila, i am completely clueless..

Nay, siguro naman you will be happy and proud of me. kung nasan man po ako ngayon dahil iyon sa mga pagsubok na pinagdaanan ko dati. and im sorry, i cant be too perfect. alam ko na alam mong my issue kami ni tatay. and i really dont know kung mababalik pa ung samahan na wala naman talagang pundasyon simula simula.

i want to thank you, for taking care of me until the age of nearly 5 years old. thank you sa pagsubaybay, sa patnubay. alam ko, iyong pagiging gala ko sa inyo ko namana. smile ^_^. hehee.. at magkamukha daw tayo, so meaning makinis ang anak nyo. ahahha.. joke lang. oo, sabi nila maputi daw ako. mana nga kasi ako sa inyo,. see. galing galing!!!

ngayon, kahit wala ka na sa tabi namin at magkakasama na kayo nina lolo at lola, pati na rin si isa pang lola, you all are taking care of me. salamat sa pagbabantay. salamat sa pagtingin tingin sa akin at paglayo sa disgrasya. alam ko naman na pinoprotektahan nyo ko eh. kayo lang naman ang meron ako eh, pero iniwan nyo na ko. pero alam ko, kaya ko ito. hindi na nga ako marunong umiyak. pero sana nararanasan ko rin iyong my nanay na naiiyakan pag my mga problema ako. na my nanay na magcocomfort sakin at yayakapin ako at sasabihing okay lang yan. things will be better tomorrow. wala eh. cguro till pangarap na lang muna yan.

so Nay, ito lang po.. SALAMAT sa lahat. salamat salamat at salamat. ingats ka jan ah.. hindi pa po ako ready, matagal pa.. hehehe

david.edward signing off.....

saying goodbye...

napapanaginipan ko si cherry for the past two days. sabi ko sa kanya kasi wag nya akong dalawin. but then she is taking the other way to visit me. well, un nga. for the first dream, bumisita daw kami ng isa pa naming friend sa house nila and from that point parang we were hit by the truth in front of our face that Cherry is no longer with us. na she already left this world. so idea na iyon, dun kami naiyak. I must admit that until now I cant still believe the fact that Cherry is already dead. eh napaka masayahin nya at bungisngis. dun ako sa panaginip ko umiyak. hindi ko rin alam kung bakit eh. cguro, i just let go of my emotions on my dreams. then kahapon naman nung natutulog ako, si cherry nasa panaginip ko na naman but this time she is already dead. parang i knew that she was inside the coffin na but i wasnt sure that she is the one who is really inside. so in order to make sure na si cherry nga ung patay, i opened the box and there, i saw her body. just like i saw here inside sa coffin. and yes, this time patay na cya. ang hirap lang tanggapin no? kasi we wouldn't know when are we gonna leave this earth. sabi nga nila wag ka daw masyadong mabaet. sobrang baet kasi ni cherry. i hope that she is okay and she is at peace where ever she is right now.

sigh, Che mamimiss ka namin.. ang daya mo lang eh. nauna ka sa amin eh ang bata bata pa naman natin. hindi pa nakakapag reunion ung buong batch natin oh. 10 years na che since we graduated high shool. ngayon, pinagpaplanuhan na ung reunion but sad to say, the class president will be missing on this occassion.

paalam Che! i know paulit ulit na ito, kasi di pa rin ako naniniwala eh. ang hirap kaya Che. huli nating usap ang tagal tagal nun di ba, halos isang oras ata na long distance un. and excited pa kong umuwi ng November kasi makikita ko baby mo then makikita ko rin baby ni gheena. alam mo un, two of my close friends my baby na and makikita ko kayo ng november but then, iniwan mo na kami.

cge che. sana matanggap na namin na wala ka na.. ;(



david.edward signing off.....

crying times

yes, I dont cry out loud when I saw you inside the coffin. still, I can't believe that you already left all of us. that we will no longer see the cherry, our friend, whom I always visit everytime I go to Bataan. and yet, as of the moment, I can't imagine and can't accept the fact that you were already dead. I know, I still hope that you will still be there when I visit Ghee. That the three of us will laugh and make kwento about our lives. Even though we were miles apart, our friendship remains strong...

I just cried in my dreams, I am not sure if it is accepting the fact that you were already gone. Yes, I went to your house and looking for you and the truth sank in my mind that you were no longer alive. Sad.

goodbye, Che!

david.edward signing off.....

an overnight stay in Manila

hay.. okay, im back here in Malaysia. been in Manila last Monday and Tuesday. yes, it was only an overnight stay in Manila.

the plane touched down Manila on Monday early morning and then leave again on Tuesday night. the reason why I went back to Manila is because I attended the funeral of my close friend. yes, I lost a very close friend.

goodbye, Che!

david.edward signing off.....

pagod ang katawang lupa

from last night's shift, we went straight to the court. and had a fight with different players. for the mixed doubles, we got two games and we lost on the first game and we won on the second game. why? because of the caramel venti frapuccino with one shot of espresso. it keeps me alive and hyper. and i was really on hyper active mode those times. para lang akong lasing na magulo.. ahhaha.. now I imagined myself when I am drunk though there is no possibility as I don't drink alcohol liquor.

and also took a bath and submerged myself with lukewarm water in my bath tub. a 30 minute "me" time was enough. i had removed all my bad smell from my body. yuck! that was the effect of playing the whole morning till early afternoon.

anyways, I will sleep early today around 9 pm and will go to the office tomorrow to do some work since I will be in Manila on Monday and Tuesday..,

david.edward signing off.....

goodbye, a good friend of mine

thank you for the ride. thank you for the journey during our time. thank you for the memories, for the happy and sad moments of our life together. thank you for being a part of it. i know that you are in great place right now, and that you are at peace. wherever you are be happy. worry no more. you'll be in God's hand in no time.

i know that it wont be the same again when i go back to our place. it will be different this time. i lost a friend. they lost a daughter. we lost you.

che, thanks for everything. I thank the Lord for allowing us to meet a beautiful person during our high school days and being a friend until the end. as you always say, yes, magkumpare na tayo. we will be here for your daughter.

i hope to see you for the last time. i really do.

david.edward signing off.....

modelo mode

bawal na daw ang panget sa office. kaya ngayon, either panggabi or pang umaga ka, you are required to be in corporate attire minus the tie. so ibig sabihin, modelo mode activate ulit! hahaha..

so kahapon, before kami manood ng Iron Man sa pavilion sa KL, namili muna ko ng mga damit at long sleeves. all in all ang mga nabili ko? 5 long sleeves, at 4 na polo shirt. at bumili na rin ako ng additional socks ko na gagamitin para sa leather shoes.

so sa lahat ng nabili ko, magkano nagastos ko? mga kinse mil! bwahahha.. ihinto na ito.. ayoko na.. huhu.. cge, di na lang ako kakain ng mga dalawang linggo until pagdating ng sweldo. ahhaha.. ang mahal kasi ng mga damit. eh kesa naman bumili ako ng mga nandun sa mga panget na long sleeves, eh ayoko kaya. baka mamaya pare parehas pa kami ng suot ngaun.. ahahha..

so mamaya, magpapagupit kami at sana maging okay ang unang modelo mode.. lolz

david.edward signing off.....

new laptop.. new set up

yef yef.. my bago akong laptop, pero hindi ung personal. office laptop po.. pinalitan na nila ung DELL Latitude na laptop ko kasi expired na ung leasing contract sa DELL. actually that was two weeks ago pa. I already sent an email na nga sa IT people na my warranty already expired and still I am using the laptop. eh pano kung masira, or mawala? hehehe..

so iyon nga, nitong hapon nauwi na ni housemate ung laptop ko from the IT. cya kasi kugn kumuha after maayos.. adik din kasi itong taga IT, sinabi ko na  sa email na panggabi ako, dumaan ako ng 9 am wala pa cya, nag email sa kin asking if I can make it at 10:30 AM. so sumagot ako na nakapunta na ko dun pero wala cya. then tumawag ba naman ng 2:30 asking some questions, blah blah.. alam mo un? parang ano ba naman kuya!! I told you na I am working night shift and if your common sense serves you right, you should know na by that time I am already sleeping and taking rest. tsktsk.. then eto pa, around 3:30 he sent me a text message asking if I do have an admin rights sa pc ko. my question was a big why ask me??? can't you look at your records and check? sigh.. ewan ko ah.. ang tamad talaga.

anyways, so ngayon nandito na ko sa office pero wala pa kogn nagagawa kasi nagseset up pa rin ako ng pc ko till now. hehehe.. then my training pa tomorrow morning.. waaa.. gusto ko na umuwi.. ahahah

david.edward signing off.....

tinatamad

oo.. gusto ko lang magpahinga.. gusto ko ng whole body massage tapos chillax lang after..  ung matutulog ako sa malambot kong kama na napapaligiran ng mga unan at ng comforter at ang aircon naka set sa 16 degrees lang..

sobrang pagod na sa paglilipat.. need na rin ng pahinga.. monday pa  lang pero tinatamad na ko sa trabaho ko.. sana thursday na para sa friday wala akong pasok kasi naka leave ako... masakit na rin pala balikat ko, kaya ako tinatamad na.. tsktsk..

super tired...

yes, I am.. and its all because of this transferring thing. I never thought that I would be this exhausted when this time came. I just thought of it as a simple move over from the old condo unit to the new unit. sigh. I was wrong.

based on the current situation, my room is almost 90 percent fixed. toiletries are in the proper place, I can use the bathroom and go out ready. my perfumes are on the mirror table together with my watches. and my clothes inside the cabinet, they are in their proper places. that is the reason why I am super tired. going to the old place to get some things and going back here is a tiring task. grr! I dont wanna do it again. and because of this so much effort in the new condo, we have decided to a minimum of two years contract. ahahhaa.. actually they said three, I said two for myself. hehehe..

our rooms are personalized. I have painted my room with color baby blue. and put some blinds and arrange the bathroom the way it could handle all my toiletries and my things. one thing missing though is my computer table. my old table can't occupy the space in my present room as it is too wide. and that is the only place that I can put it.

okay. need to log out. pictures? I will try tomorrow.

david.edward signing off.....