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2010-08-12T23:50:00.001-07:00

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the nominee

2010-08-09T20:56:00.000-07:00

the certificate for the nomination i got from the department.

btw, i did not win the first place, the reason why i only have the certificate. lolz

and i am not expecting anything in return for all the work i've done. :D

Team Building 2010

2010-08-08T23:08:00.000-07:00

came back last night from an overnight team building of Production Services, including - ServiceDesk, Service Implementation, Operations, Infrastructure and the Solution Support team. kinda tiring coz the travel time from the city to the resort is almost 5 hours and the bus is moving so slow.. tsktsk..

had a good time and met some people from the event. and yes, there's a lot of activity and most of them are indoors! so how can the team building experience with that? how to practice it? oh well, maybe my idea of team building is different from the one they know.

now, my body has some parts that is complaining. yes, i have body ache. lolz. i ran, i jumped, i shout, and all. and this is the effect of the two day event. hope to get more sleep later. work can wait. i'll start working again tonight.

david.edward signing off.....

pahingi ng facebook mo

2010-08-03T00:42:00.000-07:00

yan ang sabi ng pinsan ko kahapon nung tumawag ako sa pinas. last week kasi nung birthday ko tumatawag nung ninang ko. (tita ko rin ung ninang ko). hindi ko sinasagot ung tawag, unang una mahal ang long distance na galing sa pinas. and hindi naman sila ganun kayaman para mag ubos ng load. tipong sakto lang. so sabi ko wag ng tumawag at mahal.

so kahapon, on my way going to cyberia to play badminton, tumawag ako sa tita ko (habang nasa taxi ako). so sabi ko anong meron. kwentuhan tungkol sa ganito ganyan. kung kelan daw ako ulit uuwi. mga ganung bagay. sabi ko di ko pa rin alam. so nung medyo matatapos na ung usapan namin, sabi ng pinsan kong babae dun, nasan na daw ung facebook ko. pahingi daw ng facebook ko. which means of course is my email address so she can add me to the networking site. sabi ko wag na. hindi nyo ako mahahanap sa facebook. sabi nya, facebook lang eh, cguro my tinatago ka sa facebook mo. and i told her, ano naman tatago ko sa facebook ko?.. hahaha.. so cge madamot na kung madamot pero i still wont add her to my friends list.

why?

Facebook is a networking site na kung saan ang isang kaibigan mo ay puede ng sundan ang mga gawain mo sa araw araw.
ito rin ay isang paraan para makita nila ang mundong iyong ginagalawan.
at ito rin ay maaring gamitin na isang daan upang makilala nila ang mga taong nakakasama mo sa iyong pang araw araw na pamumuhay
puede rin naman nilang malaman ang mga pinupuntahan mong lugar.

ayoko na malaman nila ang buhay na iniikutan ko. tama na iyong ako ang lalapit at papasok sa mundong ginagalawan nila. okay na ko sa idea na iyon. pero kapag pinapasok ko sila sa mundo ko, malalaman nila ang mga lugar na ginagalaan ko, ang mga tao na nakakasama ko. at iyon ang ayokong mangyari. oo. lesson learned iyon. ive had enough troubles in my life for the past three years. at dahil sa pangyayari na tatlong taon na ang naganap, hindi ko na puede ulit gawin iyon. even it means that they are my relatives. kasi relatives ko rin naman ang my kagagawan ng mga pananakot na iyon.

hindi nila puedeng malaman kung san ako nakatira. hindi nila puedeng malaman kung san ako nagtatrabaho. hindi nila puedeng malaman kung kelan ako nasa pilipinas. at hindi nila puedeng malaman kung san ako umuuwi kapag nasa pilipinas ako. oo. i have a lot of issues regarding family matters. and to speak honestly, it feels like i dont have anyone to call my family and to call my own home. marami akong kaibigan. at isa iyon sa mga rason kaya hindi ko hinahayaan na pumasok sa buhay na iniikutan ko ang mga relatives ko. ayokong magamit ang kaibigan ko laban sa akin at masaktan sila ng dahil sa akin. oo. meron akong utak na pang kriminal, sayang naman kung di gagamitin ang utak na meron ako.

my mga rason ako kaya di ko puedeng ibigay ang ibang detalye mula sa akin. ang alam lang nila, nasa malaysia ako nagtatrabaho. hindi rin nila alam anong uri ng trabaho meron ako. basta sa computer. iyon lang iyon. kung san ako umuuwi sa pinas at kung kelan ako nandun, hindi ko rin sinasabi. sumusulpot lang ako sa kanila kung kelan ko gusto. at pag tinanong ako kung kelan ako babalik dito? sasabihin ko ng mas maaga sa tinakdang flight ko. or minsan araw pa. at pag umalis na ko sa kanila, madalang na ulit ako magreply sa mga text nila kung nasan ako. para lang akong nagtatago no? oo.. ganun na nga. my mga taong hindi pa ko handang harapin.

at habang my mga ganyan akong issue, tutuparin ko muna ang mga pangarap ko sa tulong ng aking bestfriend na si lord god. alam ko kaya ko ito. ^_^

at oo, wala akong relatives na nasa facebook page ko. lahat sila kaibigan ko.

david.edward signing off.....

half day and badminton

2010-08-03T00:00:00.000-07:00

went to cyberia to play badminton with the gang - lace, dex, kai, fatz, and dianini.. yep. konti lang kami na pumunta. but still okay naman ung game. hehehe... kahit papano.. we started around 7:45 kasi 2 pa lang kami ni dex dun eh.

after that, kumain muna sila sa "the walk". kwentuhan to the max na naman.. hehe.. then i noticed na 10:30 na pala. so tinanong ko si fatz kung uwi na ba sila after kumain kasi sabay na lang ako. so un, nakaalis kami ng place ng mga 11 pm na. then after that nasa bahay ako ng 11:30 then i turned my laptop on and went online sa communicator for my officemates to know that i am online na. but after that naligo muna ko and kumain.. hehehe..

half day.. nung nasa the walk pa lang kami, tinext ko na si kuya na maghahalfday ako and work from home na lang. so kaya ako sa bahay nagwork till 3 AM kasi nga half day.

nakatulog ako ng 4:30, i think medyo matagal din. and nagising ako ng 10:30. so meaning i already had 6 hours of sleep, but then sabi ko no, need ko pang matulog and to take a rest. and then i went back to my dreamland. nagising ako 2:30 na. hahaha.. plus 4 hours. so ngaun i have a total of 10 hours sleep. later tutulog ulit ako cguro mga 5. :)

david.edward signing off.....

waiting

2010-08-02T03:26:00.000-07:00

i have a badminton game, 35 minutes from now and yet im not moving.. i already packed my bags, and my racket. i just need to pick those things up and put this laptop on my office bag and im ready to go. instead of taking the bus, i will just take a cab going to the court. oh, did i mention that it is 20km away from home? yep.. that far.

anyways, maybe i'll just leave around 7pm and i'll be there around 7:30. i dont like the feeling of myself now. feeling that i have a slight fever inside. geez.. hope that i can perform well tonight.

so till my next post.

david.edward signing off.....

Clinique - made my shopping day

2010-08-01T13:28:00.000-07:00

went to Garden's ulit kanina to watched "SALT" movie by Angelina Jolie. actually, I dont have any plans of buying anything as I am a "changed man" now in regards to shopping and buying everything sa mall. for the past three months, I know how to control my expenses na.. enough of that na pala, we roamed inside the mall kasi my mga kanya kanyang gustong puntahan cyempre since Sunday, its a free day for us. this is what I told myself before na when my moisturizer from M&S is almost empty, I'll buy na the complete set from Clinique.. oo, maarte ako sa mukha lalo na ngayon na I'm here sa malaysia na ang mahal ng facial services and ang hirap makipag usap sa kanila.. anyways, so sabi ko I think this is the right time. so I went to the clinique booth sa my gitna ng mall and talked to their saleslady / promoter.. and by doing that, I ended up buying three items from them - dapat apat pa iyon but then wala ng stock ung after shave na cream, it became 3 items na lang..

so ano ba binili ko? you can take a look at this site kung ano ung sinasabi ko.. click mo ito..

yan ung tatlong steps to a great skin. you have the soap (either liquid or bar), then toner. and lastly, the moisturizer (in lotion form).

I'm already using the bar soap since last year, but ngayon ko lang tinuloy na buong set na. and aside sa moisturizer and the toner, I also bought a facial scrub for myself. oo.. vanity strikes again.. pasensya na, likhang sensya.. my mga dapat pa kong ipaayos, di pa kumpleto.. :(

so, ngayon yan na ung product line na gamit ko. so i will stop other brands na.. i already stopped using products from "The Face Shop" last year because nai-irritate na ata ung skin ko.. im not sure though. and iyon, sana in two weeks time makita ko na ung result. and oo, nagshave na ko to see it better.. panget naman kasi kung my mga buhok buhok ako sa mukha di ba? saka na pag sobrang kinis ko na.. hahaha

magkano ang price ng tatlong yan? ung soap na bar, you can choose if you want the three in 1 pack (meaning 3 small bars na pang travel which I am using now para hindi maduming gamitin) and the big soap bar na pang matagalan talaga.. the small bar cguro you can use it in 3 or less months depende sa iyo.. it will cost you 80 RM, so mga one thousand pesos cya sa Pinas (after convertion). then the toner will cost you 115 RM (mga 1500 in Php for 400 ml) and lastly, the lotion moisturizer is 150 RM, mga 2000 Php. ah, iyong facial scrub din pala will cost you 90 RM (1350) more or less,,

my freebies naman kong nakuha, 3 small pcs na pang travel.. isang gamitan.. hahaha.. in total lahat sa php, around 6k more or less ung lahat ng yan.. medyo madugo sa bulsa pero cyempre wag kaung bibili ng ganitong products kung meron namang alternate for your skin types (meaning mas mababa ang presyo) and iyong kaya lang ng budget nyo. makinis ka nga wala ka namang pangkain, hindi rin tama iyon. dapat sakto lang..

I'll just wait for the second week and I'll be clean for the next two weeks. I will always shave my excessive facial hair na.. hehehe

david.edward signing off.....

Thank You...

2010-08-01T10:33:00.000-07:00

to those who greeted me on my birthday, just wanna say thank you for taking a little time of yourself to greet me on my special day..

again, THANKS!

david.edward signing off.....

my 26th birthday

2010-07-30T02:24:00.000-07:00

yep. i am already 26th years old. officially today. so what's new? wala naman.. the same old story. the same old life. but of course, a year older, wiser, and meaner. hahaha.. my facebook wall is full of greetings already and i tried to reply every message. returning back the favor when they think that its my birhday today.

source

so, thats it.

tomorrow is a party day dito sa house.. so we're preparing a little food.

konti lang naman.. tipong sakto lang sa lahat ng pupunta.. hehehe

so, thanks ulit sa lahat ng bumati..

david.edward signing off.....

wala na namang tulog

2010-07-28T13:41:00.000-07:00

okay, cge meron. 2 hours.. but how my body would be able to stand up 8 hours and do my work with just two hours of sleep? okay, cge nakaupo. pero ung mag isip ka ng wala kang tulog? patay kang bata ka.. actually, gusto ko ng umuwi at humiga sa kama ko.. :(

inaantok na talaga ako at iyong mata ko nagluluha na naman and i know na ang reason is because i lack of good sleep. teka bakit nga ba ako kulang sa tulog kahapon? kasi po we watched the movie - Inception. eh ang haba ng pelikula ni Leonardi Di Caprio kaya nakauwi kami sa bahay ng around 3:30 na, then nakatulog naman ako ng mage-8 na ata dahil di ako makatulog agad. tsktsk..

so un, right now I am just finishing off all my tickets so that I can go home around 8 am. tapos tulog na ko dapat ng 10. :)

birthday ko na pala bukas.. lolz

david.edward signing off.....

quota na

2010-07-26T16:48:00.000-07:00

walang laro ng badminton kahapon, hindi daw nakapagpa reserve ng court. so okay lang naman dahil tinatamad din ako kahapon.

balak ko sanang matulog na lang ulit pero hindi naman ako nakatulog hanggang sa pumasok na kami sa office ng 10:30. sayang din ung oras na iyon, but then natulog na naman ako sa bus. as in ung malalim na tulog. dito din sa office, twice akong natulog sa cube ko. pero idlip lang un, mga 20 minutes na cguro pinaka matagal. alam mo ung feeling na sobrang antok ka at hilo ka sa antok? ganun ako kanina. kaya umidlip muna ko kahit papano..

ngaun, tapos ko na mga trabaho ko. as in wala na kong pending. so it means kahit natutulog ako d2 sa cube ko, alam ko kaya kong gawin. :p

and i think i've had enough for the day. more than 10 tickets na eh. quota na kumbaga.

4 more days before my birthday..bwahahha

david.edward signing off.....

advance birthday treat

2010-07-25T07:09:00.000-07:00

watched a movie (sorcerer's apprentice) this afternoon together with the gang (housemates, di, dicey and kuya sherwin) sa gardens. left home around 3 pm and its raining hard nung lumabas kami ng condo. took the bus instead of taking a cab kasi dumaan bigla ung bus.. bwahhaha

sakto lang naman ung dating namin sa movie house / mall. then after we watched the movie, nagpunta ako ng bookstore kasi my need akong bilin na libro. ung para sa improvement ng english ko.. bwahahah.. so nakabili ako ng 2 book.. parang natrigger na naman ung kagustuhan kong matuto.. so after nun, sabi libre daw kasi we're supposed to eat dinner na. sabi ko cge, ok lang.. and asked kung san kakain..

it was the second time na nagcelebrate or rather nagtreat ako sa Chili's ng birthday ko. it is the same people last year. indeed, it was a happy moment. kasi you're sorrounded with friends. advance nga lang kasi 5 more days pa.. hahaha

so to me, advance happy birthday!!

david.edward signing off.....

survey..

2010-07-24T07:29:00.000-07:00

wala pa rin akong matinong mapost ngaun kasi antok na naman ako.. waaa.. ano ba ginawa ko kanina? hmm... ah, mineet namin ung dati naming landlord kasi nag compute na kami ng mga balances, it has been 2 months na rin after we left the unit. so un, bumaba kami sa my pool area then nameet nga namin si Raymond. so nagcompute ng mga remaining balances like ung electricity, ung water bill, then pati ung palinis ng aircon..

after that, balik ulit dito sa unit. facebook lang ata ginawa ko and then nagbabad ako sa bathtub. ah, nagvideoke pala kami, ay mali pala - ako lang pala kumanta.. hehehe..

ah, naglaro pa pala ko ulit ng generals.. mga naka 2 or tatlong games ata ako. then we had our dinner kani kanila lang.. so ngaun, im just answering questions from a friend regarding sa survey then after that tulog na ko kasi maaga pa ko bukas sa office.. hay

david.edward signing off.....

pagod pa rin?

2010-07-23T14:36:00.000-07:00

pagod pa rin ang katawang lupa, imagined late na naman ako nagising? 09:40 pm nung magising ako dahil sa alarm clock.. enjoy na enjoy ako sa pagtulog the past 2 days ah.. hehehe..

thanks God friday na rin kahit papano.. at least makakapag pahinga na rin bukas sa bahay.

late na rin pala ko natulog kanina mga quarter to 3, kasi naglaro pa ko ng generals ulit.. bwahhaha.. kasi nung isang araw di ako nakapag laro eh.. hehehe..

meron pa palang good news. remember ung post ko na dinugo utak ko sa investigation? nagbunga un.. hehehe.. wala kaming issue kundi ung sender ng file. bwahahha.. post ko dito ung email nung director sa US regarding sa ginawa ko..

david.edward signing off.....

pagod ang katawang lupa

2010-07-22T14:24:00.000-07:00

at ang patunay? nakatulog ako ng mula before 1 at nagising ng 09:40 ng gabi.. walang gising gising.. dire diretsong tulog.. actually feeling ko nga 6 pm pa lang nung nagising ako, dahil gusto ko pang matulog. heheh..

pano ba naman, nung isang araw 30 minutes lang tulog ko before ako pumasok ng office. so pagod pagod na ko cyempre, wala ng energy tapos my investigation pa ko na ubos dugo sa utak. so morning di pa rin ako tapos sa investigation, nasa kin na lahat ng need ko - sample input and output file, mapping specs, map models etc. nung 9 am my meeting pa raw sa migration na mangyayari sa linggo at dahil ako na naman ang mapalad na nilalang, umattend kami.. nagugutom na ko during this time, pero wala ng time.. nagmamadali na ung my issue eh halos mahilo hilo na nga ako sa details at sa gutom, nagkasabay sabay na..

nakauwi ako ng 10 am na bus (10:20 sa waiting shed dumaan ung bus) at buti na lang nag expressway cya at before 11 nasa bahay na ko.

so kumain lang ako sandali, nagsend pa rin ng email then nugn wala ng reply, okay so ito na iyon. tapos na.. pasok sa kwarto, bukas ng aircon at boom! higa na ang modelo. in a matter of 2 minutes black out na ko..

so nagising ako ng 9:40 dahil my tumatawag sa phone ko, si housemate. gumising na raw ako at anong oras na.. hahaha.. maaga kasi ako usually nagigising at nasa living room lang the normal days - nagtatrabaho.. lolz..

so ngayon, tinatamad ako.. nag investigate na naman ako then my 2 pa kong tickets na tamad ko talagang gawin.. word of the day - TAMAD..

so pano dito na lang muna, sana weekend na para makapag pahinga na rin ako kahit papano at makatulog.. ay shocks,. hindi rin pala puede kasi my gagawin sa linggo.. sana bayaran nyo ko ng malaki dito ah..bwahahah...

david.edward signing off.....

idlip

2010-07-21T05:31:00.000-07:00

idlip lang ang nagawa ko imbes na tulog.. oo, nahihirapan akong matulog kanina. at anong oras na ako humiga di ba pagkakain. after 30 minutes pa ata ako nakatulog. at nung nakatulog naman ako, oh well, ang saya. tumunog cellphone ko at my nareceived akong bulletin mula sa mga taga EMEA. cute cute.

ngayon, ang bigat ng balikat ko. sana mkapag perform ako mamaya sa duty ko. hahaha

david.edward signing off.....

lucky me pancit canton

2010-07-21T02:38:00.000-07:00

matutulog na sana ko kanina kaya lang habang nakahiga ako, naramdaman ko na nagugutom ako. ok lang sana kasi i had my lunch naman kanina pero di ako mapakali kasi pag alam kong gutom ako. so ginawa ko tumayo ako sa kama and went straight sa kitchen. bukas ng ref. check dito, check doon. haven't found anything na magiging medyo mabigat sa tyan ko.

okay, cge.. tapos naalala ko nga pala na my pancit canton pa kami galing pinas.. hehehe.. so bukas ako ng cabinet at hinanap ko ung noodles na imported pa mula pinas, at ang sumunod na pangyayari? naka connect na naman ako sa office network at nagdodownload ng mails habang kumakain ng 2 pakete ng pancit canton at umiinom ng malamig na coke.. at ang last reaction??

BURP.. hahahha.. busog na ulit.. heheh.. puede na ulit matulog in a while. pag nakatulog ako ng mga 6, ibig sabihin my 4 hours pa kong tulog. wala akong balak pumasok ng maaga later.. sakto lang.. hehehe

david.edward signing off.....

english test

2010-07-20T18:43:00.000-07:00

nagtry lang ako sa jobstreet kasi nag post ako ng updated resume ko. as always, i am not that good and will never be perfect in this language. lolz

david.edward signing off.....

nasita.. my naninita

2010-07-20T17:45:00.000-07:00

nag online ako regarding sa work ko ngayon dahil ung SD tumawag na naman kanina kahit hindi ako ung on call for the day. so ano pa magagawa ko, pinasa ko ung ticket sa kasama ko. nakaleave nga ako eh di ba. hehehe

well, back to the original story. nagbasa ako ng mga mails. my mga nakita lang naman ako or rather i say napuna na naman. kinausap ko si mich, iyong girl na bago and i said lahat ng mga nakita ko. for me kasi wala naman un, parang im saying lang this naman para sa kanila and for the team. and security purposes, tapos my nag email. hehehe..

Salamat sa advice, pero alam ko din naman ang gingawa ko. Sabihin mo sakin san ako nagkamali sa pagcompose ko ng email. Kung titingnan mo ung nakaattach na email. Step by step ang pagkkadescribe ko kay -. Alam ko rin na somehow technical na tao si -.

Regarding sa email ni mitch (Password issue), kung titingnan mo, password to ng pagaccess sa server ng Logis-air at ang nakacopy lang eh yung Logis-Air support bukod sa caller. Walang issue sa side natin. Kung ang concern mo eh baka maccess ng ibang tao ang server ng Logis-air eh sorry. Next time, hindi namin ippaste yung part na yun. Pero wala kong nakkitang problema sa side natin.

Kung may issues ka sa pagttrabaho ko, magusap tayong dalawa or kung gusto mo isama natin si -.

so iyon. yan ung email nya. ako naman sumagot din.. hahaha.. hays. basta iyon. baka magmeeting na lang one of these days dahil sa mga paninita ko. pasensya na. perfectionist lang.. sana makahanap na ko ng bagong trabaho. :)

david.edward signing off.....

SL

2010-07-20T05:13:00.000-07:00

I will be taking my sick leave tonight. dapat kasi kahapon kaya lang nag comment ung amo ko sa facebook status ko na uminom daw ako ng vit c and go back to sleep. wala namang masama dun, nahiya lang talaga ako.. hahaha.. so pumasok ako kahapon at nag ubos ng ticket, qinuota ko na. tapos mga after lunch, bagsak na lolo mo. i am sleeping in my cube na. patay! buti na lang nasa gilid ako ng isang malaking room. at pag nakasubsob ako sa cube ko hindi halata ng mga tao unless they will go to my place to check me out which is hindi mangyayari.. hahaha.. at one more thing, buti si amo is located dun sa kabilang wing. so lusot pa rin..

mabigat pa rin kasi ung katawan ko and i know na my sinat pa sa loob. i just badly need a rest. a complete sleep. kasi kanina 6 pm pa lang nagising na ko. ang lakas kasi ng ulan sa labas. as in parang signal no 2 na ulan sa tin. kaya iyon.

ngayon, i already sent my email that i will be in SL tonight to my team mates and nagpaalam na rin ako sa senior ko. baka itulog ko na lang ito later.

so pano un na muna.. iyong pics di ko pa talaga ma upload.. nakakainis! bwahahah..

david.edward signing off.....

D.E. is sick

2010-07-19T03:34:00.000-07:00

i feel that i am sick. yes. i do also experience this kind of thing. eh kasi naman when i woke up this morning medyo masakit na ulo ko. but then i keep on enjoying the day dito sa bahay.

i already installed generals on my newly reformatted win7 laptop. inayos ko na rin ung outlook nun so i can download mails from gmail.

okay, back to what i feel right now. medyo mainit pakiramdam ng katawan ko and hindi cya ung normal na temperature. i dont know kung dahil lang ba ito sa kulang pa ko sa tulog or what. but i already took one tablet ng biogesic and i really hope that it will fade away in an hour or two so that i can go to work tonight. dami ko pa namang gustong gawin at iquota sa trabaho.. ikaw na ang buhay ang dugo pag maraming ginagawa,.,. hahaha..

iyong pictures di ko pa rin mapost.. iniisip ko nga alin gagamitin ko eh, office laptop or personal laptop.. bwahaha

david.edward signing off.....

quick post

2010-07-18T09:14:00.000-07:00

I think I won't be able to post the pictures that I captured this morning regarding the previous state of my room as I am sleepy now or rather I should say, my body is already complaining.

and because of that, I would like to take my sleep now and will be ready for the start of the week tomorrow. and I still have the whole day to sleep again tomorrow.. hahaha.. I hope that my work week will not be as hell as last week.,. and my laziness would stop..

david.edward signing off.....

tambay ng linggo

2010-07-18T07:01:00.000-07:00

kaninang tanghali pagkatapos namin kumain ng tuyo for breakfast, hehehe, sinimulan ko ng maglinis ng room ko.. di ba sa previous post ko, naligpit ko na ung isang maleta ko, ngayon naman naayos ko na ung ibang damit sa cabinet ko and nabalik ko na rin ung mga galing sa maleta pa mula pinas.. so all in all, medyo my mga natapos na rin naman ako kahit papano. iyong mga cables sa ilalim ng pc table, its good na rin. though medyo magulo pa rin ng konti dahil wala akong pantali sa kanila, its better than the previous version..

i cooked spaghetti this afternoon. dapat kasi we will go out and watch a movie sa mall ng mga kasama kong pinoy, but then nung magpapareserve na kami ng ticket online wala ng available slot para sa inception. so wag na lang, and we decided dito na lang sa bahay manood.

so nung nakaluto na ko ng spaghetti while nakasalang ang ilang labahin sa washing machine, nagtext na ko sa kanila na they can go to our unit na. nagpabili rin ako ng bread kasi we forgot na bumili ng bread sa supermarket nung nag grocery kanina.

medyo napatagal ung kwentuhan kanina after namin kumain, ung mga kwentuhan simula nung pagkabata.. hehehe.. so iyon. after nun, nanood kami ng tagalog movie. kasi ako pag weekends and dito lang sa bahay, i prefer na tagalog movies, kasi sa cinema never will they show any tagalog movie kasi wala naman kami sa pinas. so ang di pa napanood na movie is ung latest movie nina dingdong / marian. oo, nag iba sila ng atake sa movie na ito which is good.

ngayon almost 10 pm na, 2 minutes before 10 to be exact. need ko pang maligo and nakasalang pa lang ung mga polo shirt ko sa WM. ifoformat ko na din itong laptop ko kasi vista is occupying almost 15 GB ng HD ko. tapos my mga kinain pa cyang more than 20 GB na hindi ko alam kung program files lang..

ang plan ko ngayon is habang nagrereformat cya, maliligo ako.. hehehe.. ano pa ba gagawin ko? isang maleta na lang naman ang aayusin ko then ung office laptop para magdownload ng mails.. ung pix later tonight na lang. nasa camera ko pa eh..

david.edward signing off.....

quota sa tulog

2010-07-17T19:43:00.000-07:00

naka 10 oras ata ako ng tulog. ang huling alam ko kagabi, naligo ako (nagbabad sa bath tub) tapos paglabas ko kumakain na ng dinner.. and after we ate dinner, checked my facebook page then went offline. turned off the office laptop and went back to my room.

actually, ung Service Desk is calling my phone. first it was a missed call. eh hindi na naman aksi ako ung on call, as what I mentioned in my previous post, I already completed the on call week, so maybe hindi lang napalitan ung list and the SD is still calling my mobile number.

so when I answered the phone, I told the person on the other line to call the secondary on the list (kung ako pa rin ung primary, ung secondary na ung magiging primary the following week), so I sent an sms message to Marc telling him that there is an increase on the CPU load of one of our servers. and after a while, he replied. he will check daw.

when i went back to my room, i put my mobile phone to silent mode, para walang istorbo.. bwahaha.. baka tawagan na naman ako, eh ang sarap kaya matulog ng totoong madilim ang paligid at di ko na kailangan ng eye patch sa mata.. :)

paggising ko kanina ng around 9, my 2 missed call. galing ulit ng SD. hahah.. at my mga text message din na pumasok.. ako. okay.. no need to work now. i should stop myself from doing these things. i have also my personal stuff that needs attention.

so ngayon, nakakain na ko ng breakfast.. nakasalang na sa washing machine ko ung mga undies. then later ung mga damit pag my sampayan na.. nagkasabay sabay ulit kasing maglaba dito sa bahay.. hehehe..

naayos ko na ung isang malaking maleta, nalabas ko na sa room ko.. ung isang travelling bag, nabalik ko na rin sa cabinet.. konti na lang at malilinis ko na rin ung kwarto ko.. heheh..

post ko pics next entry pagkatapos ko maglinis.. =)
ngaun balik muna ko sa room ko at maglilinis ulit..

david.edward signing off.....

tulog.. pagod.. antok..

2010-07-17T05:35:00.000-07:00

natulog lang ako kanina tanghali pagdating ng bahay. saturday morning but actually friday night sa mga night shifter. dahil nga sa pagod na rin cguro need ko rin talaga matulog. sa office nga umidlip ako eh, total of 1 hr na ata un, bale 3 session ata ng idlip un.. kasi mabigat na ung balikat ko. and pati na rin ung katawan ko mabigat na rin.

so mga dapat gawin? ilista natin..

linisin ung buong kwarto (itabi na ung 2 maleta, ibalik na ung mga hindi nagamit na damit sa cabinet)
linisin ung banyo (ayusin lahat ng mga gamit sa bawat estant)
ayusin ung cables sa ilalim ng computer table
ayusin ung mga laundry clothes at if possible, maglaba bukas.. (its been a month since nung huling laba)

pero tinatamad ako.. ahahah.. gusto ko lang matulog at maglaro sa pc ko.. bwahahha.. bahala na mamaya..

david.edward signing off.....

sabado na!!!

2010-07-16T15:54:00.000-07:00

buti naman, at least weekend at makakapag pahinga na rin.. and one more thing, that on call thing is now completed! the hell week has passsssed.. bwaahahha.. so I can sleep now without worrying anyone will call me "anytime".... so I can enjoy my sleeping time.. sigh.. good to think about that.. hehehe...

and i need to do the laundry pa pala.. ahahah.. oo mahigit isang buwan na naman akong hidni naglaba.. since before ako umuwi ng Manila ng last week ng June.. and makalat din ung room ko, need ko pa ayusin ung maleta ko..hehehe..

so ngaun, one more hour before umuwi.. sana 8 na para makauwi ng maaga at maenjoy ang sabado.. :)

david.edward signing off.....

inis...

2010-07-15T21:28:00.000-07:00

im still having issues with some new team members.. i dont know kung dahil lang ba sa akin ito or the way they really work.. the trainings has been done. pointers has been pointed out. the important things has been said and yet they keep on committing the same mistakes over and over again.. and that what really makes me feel bad.

or, maybe the thing that really make me feel bad is the rejection i feel from them. i know that i am brutally frank, and i can say the meanest word and degrade you to the nth level, but when I see that you accepted your error and you are trying your best to cope up, I would be more than glad to see you. Even though you have flaws you are trying your best to meet the right procedures and etc.

but i have this feeling that this person is rejecting the idea that i say all the error that they committed. that they take it negatively.. what could be my meanest answer to that?

oo, ang dami mong mali. paulit ulit na lang.. how many times do we need to tell you that you should be doing this and that. do you know na dahil sa mga ginagawa nyo the team has been put into bad light? dumaan na kami sa matinding unos. naramdaman na namin ang magpagulong gulong sa ibaba. narinig na rin namin lahat ng masasamang salita. naayos naman namin ang trabaho namin at napatunayang kaya namin sa pagtutulong tulong naming 4 or 5. isang taon na ang dumaan at okay naman na kami pero biglang tumbling na naman dahil sa mga ginawa nyo. alam mo iyon.. nakaka depress kung alam nyo lang.. unang tanong? hindi nyo ba talaga alam ang ginagawa nyo? kung ganon, pano kayo nakapasa sa interview? tingin ko naman alam nyo naman at my idea kayo kung anong trabaho meron kami? sana naman tinignan nyo ung sarili nyo kung qualified ba talaga kayo or hindi.. kasi bakit ko pa ipipilit ang sarili ko sa lugar na hindi naman ako handa at hindi ko naman kaya. oo. puede namin kayong tulungan, pero wala rin ung pagtuturo na un kung paulit ulit na lang. nasa inyo pa rin iyon kung papano nyo gagawin ang trabaho nyo.. eh ang nangyayari pati kami nadadamay sa mga maling nagagawa nyo,.. konting isip, tyaga, pagpupursige, at pagtanggap sa kamalian minsan.. ang hirap kasi nasabihan lang ng mali, you take it so negatively.. as in sobra.. oo halata ko.. hindi naman ako tanga. i gave up. ayoko ng mga ganyang uri ng tao. mas magiging mabaet pa ko kung nakita ko na tinanggap mo ung kamalian mo na yun tapos nag eeffort ka na matama un.. eh hindi eh.. parang feeling mo binabagsak ka na.. siguraduhin mo lang talaga na hindi kami lalagapak ng sadsad na sadsad, dahil kapag nangyari yan, babaligtad mundo nyo dahil sa gagawin ko..

the answer above was so bad.. i can be the meanest person you'll ever met pag ginalit nyo ko.. oo tanga ako minsan, pero naiinis ako sa mga taong tanga at mayabang.. un lang!

i dont know kung may makakabasa nito sa office or what, pero this is what i feel now and hindi na ko nagiging masaya.. hindi ko naman sinasabing sobrang galing ko, pero i have the responsibility not only to myself but to the whole team to do my best and hindi maging pabigat.. now, ask yourself, are you doing your best? if your answer would be yes , this is what i can tell you - "BUT YOUR BEST WASN'T GOOD ENOUGH"..

this is my blog and i can say what ever i want to say on this.
take it personally and not professionally. deal with it.
david.edward signing off.....

started the week. hmmm.. lazy

2010-07-12T15:47:00.000-07:00

oo, tamad.. lazy.. i started this week na tinatamad ako sa ginagawa ko sa trabaho.. cguro ito na rin ung tinatawag na exhausted.. di ko rin alam baka nga.. with all these things happening lately regarding work related, baka nga..

maybe, I will give it another year. ipon muna then go with the plans.. need to find na rin pala ng alternative sa plan na iyon.. hehehe.. i'll think of it, one of these days..

david.edward signing off.....

decisions.. decisions..

2010-07-07T04:28:00.000-07:00

minsan ang hirap ding magdecide no.. when the options and the opportunities are already there in front of your face. well, bakit nga ba? kasi you are looking for the better and for the long term goal and yet meron kang gustong balikan.

ano ba kasi iyon? cge, para malinaw ganito.. i am okay with my work. i just so love what I am doing. i can sense fulfillment dun sa ginagawa kong trabaho every night. its a work that full of surprises. you will never know what will happen in one night. there could be a lot of escalations to the higher management and there could be also chillax nights. what I love about this job is I am moving forward with my career. my skills are being hone to be at its best and I am learning a lot of new things. gahaman pa naman ako sa mga ganyan.. bwahaha..

but the issue with my work is the management. its like they dont care what you do in your work, when theres an issue, laging you are to blame. although, they wont said it directly na its your fault because you're not doing your job blah blah, but the words are going back to its main purpose. bkit nangyari iyon? and with the intonation pa na dapat di nangyari un kung nabantayan lang etc etc. you learn because of these incidents. pero ang nakakabadtrip lang is yung mga tao sa taas na hindi naman alam ang ginagawa mong trabaho pero ang lakas manlaglag.. iyong tipong parang alam na alam na kugn ano ung ginagawa mo.. but the truth is - HINDI.

okay, gustong balikan. I'd love to go back to a place wherein magiging magaan ang trabaho especially the people. your boss, your colleagues, and everything else. when I visited GXS office in manila on my recent trip, I just realized how much I miss these people. They are the people na I know I would be in good hands. na I know everyday will be a smooth sailing task. but then I ask again myself - what do I need to accomplish for myself? what are my long term plans? kasi when I decided to go back there, I'll be a developer again and my options will narrow down unlike now na I have different areas na puedeng pasukan..

the decision has been made. i need to save more so whenever i decided to go back, I have my savings with me to back me up. hapiness is a choice. i just need to be happy with my decision. and on the other side, I am thankful for the offer. thinking that they still do want me to work with them makes me happy. hindi pa rin pala ako ganun kasama na katrabaho,., bwaahah

ready to work again

2010-07-05T20:11:00.000-07:00

just wanna say that after a 10 days vacation in Manila, I am now back here in KL (just last night) and I am ready to face my responsibility again in my work.

well, thats for now. till then next time.. ^_^

at the airport... again!

2010-06-24T20:46:00.000-07:00

here at KLIA now.. just had snack here at McDonalds. waiting for the time the gate will open and from then we can board the plane and then the plane will take off and then will fly in the sky and then will land in NAIA then will get out of the plan, pick up the luggage at the carousel and then will take taxi to take me home!! yipee!! see mama, i can memorize.. ahahhaha..

parang tanga lang ung nasa taas na post eh no.. hehehe.. well, anyways, im here nga at KLIA para sa flight ko pabalik ng Manila.. after mga 4 hours nasa Manila na ko ulit.. hehehe

so pano, pila muna kami sa immigration.. baka mahaba eh, abutin kami ng siyam siyam...

david.edward signing off.....

gising

2010-06-22T03:11:00.000-07:00

eto na naman ang sitwasyon na mahirap iwasan.. hayz.. ala sais pa lang ng hapon gising na ko.. waaa.. dapat tulog pa ko nito kasi equivalent nito is 3 AM sa normal working hours.. tstkskt..

so ayan, wala na naman akong nagawa kundi magdownload ng office mails at magcheck ng dapat gawin.. konti lang naman.. hehehe..

three more days and ill be in Manila again.. miss ko na un.. ung gumala.. magkaroon ng sariling oras at naggagala lang sa mga mall depende kung san ko maisipan.. hehehe

kain muna ko kung ano makikita ko sa kitchen.. ^_^

david.edward signing off.....

monday again..

2010-06-21T01:59:00.000-07:00

its Monday again and the work will start in a few hours and will have a lot of things to do on a Monday night. deploy, training, fix and debug. I hope that I can finish all the stuff within four days.

i still want to sleep before going to work but my body is already active. i want to keep my eyes shut but to no avail. geez!

i'll go to work early tonight so that i can start early on the issues. so, will go back to sleep again, for two more hours.. hehehe

david.edward signing off.....

topaking bata

2010-06-20T07:57:00.000-07:00

i still have my topak until now.. hahaha.. ewan ko ba sa sarili ko pag tinotopak ako.. id rather keep my mouth shut and ioopen ko lang cya when I'm talking to other people or pag kakain ako... ganun lang..

hindi pa rin ako nakikipag usap sa mga tao dito sa bahay till ngaun.. nagkukulong lang ako sa kwarto ko and i think it helps a little bit and also talking to other people online. ang weird ko kasi.. hayz..

in a while, I am gonna open my office laptop na naman to do some work which doesn't require me to do on a sunday night.. ewan. nasa sistema ko na kasi un, so what am i going to do...

david.edward signing off..

morning Sunday!

2010-06-20T03:56:00.000-07:00

parang tao lang si sunday no? hahaha.. oh well, as what the title of this post imposed, yes it is Sunday today... im still bored with what is happening lately. bored, frustrated or watsoever you call it, iyon na ung nararamdaman ko.. napapagod na ba ko? hindi pa naman siguro as I am a fighter. fight fight fight!!! pero dapat din naman tignan ang bawat laban. merong mga laban na dapat ituloy ang laban meron naman na dapat ng urungan..

teka, alin bang laban ang kinakaharap ko ngaun? im not sure eh... i have this character kasi na pag medyo napapagod na ko sa laban, instead na makasakit pa ko sa damdamin ng iba, I'd rather quit and find a new game to fight. mahirap din kasi lalo na pag ang standard mo ay iba sa standard na meron sila.

ang hirap din kasi. hindi mo na alam san ka papatungo. kung meron man. isipin mo, ano na ba talaga?
hayz..

at dahil jan, tahimik na naman ako the whole day. nagstart na naman ang topak ko last night. gutom na eh, my gusto akong kainin hindi ko nakain.. oo, brat.. spoiled. you can call me what you want. these are the times na nagpapakabrat at isip bata ako. pagod eh.. galing ng tournament the whole day ng saturday at wala pang tulog mula sa shift.

so kanina, pasta lang ang food sa bahay, eh gusto ko na ng kanin. feeling ko wala na kong lakas at kailangan ko kumain ng kanin. at ung tipong patay gutom mode.. so dahil sa walang kanin, sinabi ko ng hindi ako kakain..

at ang ginawa ko, nagpunta ako sa mall.. kumain sa resto na gusto kong kainan ng manok kagabi.. my take out pa nga eh.. tapos nakabili din ako ng tatlong polo shirt sa G2K at nagturok na naman ng kape sa starbucks.. how i miss manila during these times. alis ako ng bahay, kain sa resto or fast food na gusto kong kainin at kung ano ang trip kong kainin, then nood ng movie at ikot ng ikot sa mall then nood ulit ng movie or maghanap ng mabibili.. iyon ung mga bagay na namimiss ko sa Maynila. cyempre ibang lugar ito at wala dito ung mga pagkain na puede kong ifood trip gaya ng sa Manila.

oh well, this is life.. 4 more working days and I'll be in Manila again.

david.edward signing off.....

ACTIONS.. not WORDS...

2010-06-17T16:22:00.000-07:00

what will be the importance of a word if it doesn't have any relevant actions? what is a word without a meaning? what if you can say all the best words that a person could hear but then your actions show nothing? okay, not zero percent but lower than what I expected? what now?

it really gets me irritated when I hear or met people like these. I mean, I'd rather be quiet and I will let my work speak for itself and have other people to judge, but for you to be noisy and speak that flowery words, better be careful.

you can have all the grandest words in the world but did you ask yourself if your work also speaks the same?

think again. sometimes, you better shut up. not only for other people but also for your own sake.

david.edward signing off.....

getting better

2010-06-17T03:12:00.000-07:00

im getting better and better everyday. as the days passed by, the feeling that I had this week is fading away, little by little. it really helps when you release it to the people around you would know the scenario. people who could understand your situation or the people who are also in the same situation.

I am praying to god to release me from this feeling as this is not a good sign and giving me a not so good feeling about myself and others. and I thank God that He is doing His miracles. I can surpass again this feeling this time.

maybe, I am also a failure. that maybe, there are also expectations from me that I wasn't able to meet. and with that, I humble myself to accept these things that they are under my fault. What I can do is to go back in the game and do better. I just really hope that this imbalance will be equal again at the right time.

david.edward signing off.....

life's dissapointment

2010-06-15T03:05:00.000-07:00

there will come a time in your life when you think that all the things happening around you isn't the way you wanted it to be or you'd expect. there are some expectations that shouldn't be expected as this may bring dissapointment to the person. there are things in life that are really unfair. and with that, we can't do nothing about it.

I am in a point of my life wherein I am seeing the things around me giving me some dissapointment. I know for a fact that I shouldn't be feeling this way. That I should throw the idea of dissapointment as this never gives any good impression nor feeling to one person.

there are also when you don't expect and you see that what is happening around you isn't right. life is unfair as all of us say. yes, it is indeed true in every sense of the word (or rather the quote). Life is totally unfair. but when you think of this imbalance, this is what really life is. this is the fact that we must endure in living in this world. this is reality. this is the true drama of life.

why am I in this state of my life now, if you may ask. I'll be very frank about it. i am seeign issues around me that didn't expect my level of expectation thus giving me this feeling.

I admit that I am a competitive person, I dont like the feeling in the loosing end. And I always try to be in use or on the upper half. A feeling of self satisifaction is a feeling you cant compare with other things. It is a self fulfillment wherein you will be proud of yourself to what you've done. but there comes a time when you think that you are giving too much compared to other people but yet you are receiveing the same amount of recognition or rather same amount of reward.

I know that this shouldn't be an issue after all. it just a personal issue with me. maybe I just need a break. maybe I need to pull myself away from the crowd and have a quality time with my own self. thinking and looking back on all the good memories that somehow will make me feel a little bit better.

this is the thing that I am afraid of. a self imposed standard that even myself is afraid that I can't meet the expectation. yes, sometimes I do expect a lot. when I think that things should be in the proper place and effort given should be given the the right amount of gratitude.

I just hope that this feeling will fade away as there are other people being affected and they bring also other dissapointment to myself. I hope that my judgment is not cloudy these days as I never want to be irradical on my decisions.

I am looking forward on my Manila trip two weeks from now and maybe during that time being, I can think again and re-asses what is happening with my life.

maybe, the best description on this scenario would be - my normal expectations (or what I am doing every day that I give my best effort) are their Outstanding expectations, but the problem is that we are receving the same kind of gold and medal for a work that I have given my best and the work that they do was just below expectations.

I am not asking for any recognition or whatsoever. I just want things to be in their proper place. recognize the right people, give them what is right for them we wont have any issues at all.

this is life. i dont wanna ask again the question I asked myself when I resigned from my previous job cause I might be afraid of the answer from within.

Am I STILL happy???

david.edward signing off.....

another mistaken identity

2010-06-12T04:11:00.000-07:00

i was on my way going back to the airport, but before I left Manila that day I went to MOA to meet my officemates before and to have merienda with them. so they told me where to go so we could just meet there. and me having my back pack and my hand carry luggage, strolled the mall to look for the said resto.

you know the Music Hall in MOA? that is where it happened:

ME: looking at the map to locate the stall
Girl: Hi Sir, can I have some of your time.
ME: SMILE lang.
Girl: (thinking na she already got my attention) by the way I am *insert name here* nalimot ko na kasi..
ME: okay.
Girl: by the way sir, are you a filipino?
ME: Yeah
Girl: half american, half filipino? or other nation?
ME: nope, pure filipino.
Girl: ah okay, you dont look like kasi pure filipino.

at dahil sa usapang iyon? naging parte na ko ng UNICEF na nagbibigay tulong kada buwan. for me, that would be fine. it was like helping other and giving back what my Lord God is giving me.

hindi ba talaga ako mukhang filipino lalo na pag my contacts ako? hmm

david.edward signing off.....

the iranian story

2010-06-07T19:43:00.000-07:00

this week lang sa supermarket when we did our weekly grocery..

naghahanap na ko ng fresh milk ko sa mga estante, so when I reached sa part ng gatas, my promodizer na nakapwesto.. so kinausap nya ko:

Promodizer: hi sir, are you looking for milk?
Ako: Yep
P: Sir, can I have some minutes of your time cause I see that you we're looking for milk and that you will buy.
A: okay.
sabay abot ng maliit na cup na my gatas
P: this is our product, compared to other brands blah blah
A: okay.. nakatingin pa rin ako sa brand ng fresh milk na binibili ko..
P: ah, by the way sir, are you an Iranian?
A: huh? nope. I am a Filipino..

sabay tumbling ako eh no.. mukha ba ko talgang Iranian? cguro dahil sa balbas ko at napagkakamalan akong Iranian..

at ang ending? hindi ako bumili ng tinda nyang gatas na lasang Bear Brand. at bumili ako sa Fresh Milk na isang bukas lang lagok agad at hindi na kailangan pang timplahin.. hehehe

david.edward signing off.....

sana...

2010-06-07T15:17:00.000-07:00

three days ago since my last post. parang nakikita kona tinatamad akong mag post ng kahit na anong entry dito sa blog ko. even the latest trip namin sa Langkawi di ko pa rin nabablog ng matino until now. and I also dont know the reason why. di ko alam kung tinatamad lang talaga ako or wala lang. as in iyong ayaw ng magsulat sa blog ko.

well, I just hope na makapagsulat pa rin ako ng mga dati kong entry dito. sana..

david.edward signing off.....

i love you sabado!

2010-06-04T17:47:00.000-07:00

yehey! sabado na rin sa wakas.. and i can rest fully. cyempre, need ko rin naman na matulog lang dahil sa nagpabunot nga ako ng ngipin nung isang araw. isang araw na work from home then pumasok na the following day. adik no. oh well, that much better kesa naman naka tunganga ako di ba. anyhow, last weekend was the trip sa langkawi. maraming naganap na nakakaloko at also ung mga experience na masasabi mong its all worth it. my mga bagong kaibigang natagpuan at nadagdagan na naman ang mga memories na itetreasure sa buhay kasama ng mga kaibigan. iyong mga pictures, nasa facebook account ko. so if we are friends, you can view my albums.

there are also photos not for public consumption. pasensya na, modelo lang.. ahahha.. so un na muna sa ngayon.. need ko ng umuwi din kasi aalis ata kami para bumisita sa bagong panganak na asawa ng kateam namin dito. need naming makita ung baby junior nya.. hehehe..

so pano, till next time and post! sana di na muna ko magbago ng layout ko kasi nakakapagod din naman eh.. hehehe

david.edward signing off.....

magulong lay out

2010-06-02T17:07:00.000-07:00

ayan, magulo nga ung layout ng blog ko.. i admit hindi ko pa mafinalize ano ba talagang ung gagamitin ko kasi eh, im still looking sa net ng mga possible na gamitin. so cguro this weekend na lang..^_^

later, ill go to the dentist for extraction. sana nga para matapos na rin kahit papano. ang hirap naman kasi nun di ba.. i mean, ung need ko pang ipaalam na ganito ganyan, blah blah.. so para wala na lang problema di ipagawa na agad. sana maging okay din cya after..:)

so un na muna ngaun, iyong mga ibang kwento saka na..bwahahha

david.edward signing off.....

Langkawi in a note

2010-06-01T16:41:00.000-07:00

Today is wednesday, first day of work for this week. Monday is a US holiday and at these times we took an opportunity to go out and explore the places of Malaysia.. rawr! hahaha.. this time we went to Langkawi. had a good day at Pulau Payar - a place where you can swim with the fishes and the shark at the shore. no joke. pero cyempre small sharks lang but still they are sharks!!! lolz..

then we also had a chance to try the cable car!! from the ground of the mountain to the mountain's peek. makalaglag panga at puso ang ride na un..

ngayon, im still having body aches and i need to go to the dentist later. sana walang masyadong tao..

david.edward signing off.....

21st death anniversary

2010-05-27T00:51:00.000-07:00

May 27, 1989 when that incident happened in our life. it was a normal beautiful morning. it's like we are prepared for something that might happen. hindi cya ung tipo na sa bahay lang kami for the whole day. nanay prepared us for something, which up to this day sabi ko cguro nga alam nyang that is the last day of her life in this world.

binihisan nya kaming 3 magkakapatid ng pang alis na damit. nakasapatos, ready to go kahit san pumunta. kahit pumunta pa kami sa mga lola ko sa batangas. actually, that morning she is doing her laundry. sa my likod bahay. then kami nasa jeep lang sa harap ng bahay, no idea what will happen that very morning on the 27th of May.

sabi nya magsasampay na daw cya, and ung jeep is nakaharang sa tapat ng bahay kung nasan ung sampayan, ginising nya ung tatay ko. pinagtimpla ng kape at hinalikan sa labi. kita ko iyon sa loob ng jeep. at after nun, nung pina paurong na ung jeep ng tatay ko at ung nanay ko tinaas iyong kawad ng kuryente na sumabit sa jeep, dun naganap ang lahat.

nagulat na lang kami na ung tatay ko bumaba sa driver's seat at pumunta sa pwesto ng nanay ko at hinihila nya, iyong mga tao sa paligid nagtakbuhan na. mga tita ko, mga pinsan ko, kapitbahay at usisero. merong sumigaw sa amin na wag kaming kakapit sa bakal ng jeep.

nakita ko nanay ko na nahila or tumilpon sa my bermuda sa harap ng bahay at kami, isa isang hinatak palabas ng jeep. maya maya ung jeep umalis na at pumunta ng hospital.

makalipas ang ilang sandali, nakabalik na rin sila. and that was the very first time na nakita ko iyong tatay ko na naglulupasay sa loob ng jeep at iyong nanay ko wala ng malay sa my upuan.

they closed all the windows and doors of our house. maya maya, my kurtina na at mga ilaw. iyon na pala iyon. we lost our mother. dumating ung mga lola ko at tito, tita ko galing batangas. hanggang sa nilibing na nanay ko.

now, it was already 21 years since ung incident na iyon but i can still elaborate what happened on that very day. ng dahil dun, di ko naranasan ano nga ba ang my nanay. what it feels na meron kang kinukulit na nanay mo. na iyong tipong my gusto kang uwian sa probinsya every weekend kasi namimiss mo iyong luto nya or ung mga yakap nya. i really dont know the feeling. sabi nga nila, i am completely clueless..

Nay, siguro naman you will be happy and proud of me. kung nasan man po ako ngayon dahil iyon sa mga pagsubok na pinagdaanan ko dati. and im sorry, i cant be too perfect. alam ko na alam mong my issue kami ni tatay. and i really dont know kung mababalik pa ung samahan na wala naman talagang pundasyon simula simula.

i want to thank you, for taking care of me until the age of nearly 5 years old. thank you sa pagsubaybay, sa patnubay. alam ko, iyong pagiging gala ko sa inyo ko namana. smile ^_^. hehee.. at magkamukha daw tayo, so meaning makinis ang anak nyo. ahahha.. joke lang. oo, sabi nila maputi daw ako. mana nga kasi ako sa inyo,. see. galing galing!!!

ngayon, kahit wala ka na sa tabi namin at magkakasama na kayo nina lolo at lola, pati na rin si isa pang lola, you all are taking care of me. salamat sa pagbabantay. salamat sa pagtingin tingin sa akin at paglayo sa disgrasya. alam ko naman na pinoprotektahan nyo ko eh. kayo lang naman ang meron ako eh, pero iniwan nyo na ko. pero alam ko, kaya ko ito. hindi na nga ako marunong umiyak. pero sana nararanasan ko rin iyong my nanay na naiiyakan pag my mga problema ako. na my nanay na magcocomfort sakin at yayakapin ako at sasabihing okay lang yan. things will be better tomorrow. wala eh. cguro till pangarap na lang muna yan.

so Nay, ito lang po.. SALAMAT sa lahat. salamat salamat at salamat. ingats ka jan ah.. hindi pa po ako ready, matagal pa.. hehehe

david.edward signing off.....

saying goodbye...

2010-05-25T16:39:00.000-07:00

napapanaginipan ko si cherry for the past two days. sabi ko sa kanya kasi wag nya akong dalawin. but then she is taking the other way to visit me. well, un nga. for the first dream, bumisita daw kami ng isa pa naming friend sa house nila and from that point parang we were hit by the truth in front of our face that Cherry is no longer with us. na she already left this world. so idea na iyon, dun kami naiyak. I must admit that until now I cant still believe the fact that Cherry is already dead. eh napaka masayahin nya at bungisngis. dun ako sa panaginip ko umiyak. hindi ko rin alam kung bakit eh. cguro, i just let go of my emotions on my dreams. then kahapon naman nung natutulog ako, si cherry nasa panaginip ko na naman but this time she is already dead. parang i knew that she was inside the coffin na but i wasnt sure that she is the one who is really inside. so in order to make sure na si cherry nga ung patay, i opened the box and there, i saw her body. just like i saw here inside sa coffin. and yes, this time patay na cya. ang hirap lang tanggapin no? kasi we wouldn't know when are we gonna leave this earth. sabi nga nila wag ka daw masyadong mabaet. sobrang baet kasi ni cherry. i hope that she is okay and she is at peace where ever she is right now.

sigh, Che mamimiss ka namin.. ang daya mo lang eh. nauna ka sa amin eh ang bata bata pa naman natin. hindi pa nakakapag reunion ung buong batch natin oh. 10 years na che since we graduated high shool. ngayon, pinagpaplanuhan na ung reunion but sad to say, the class president will be missing on this occassion.

paalam Che! i know paulit ulit na ito, kasi di pa rin ako naniniwala eh. ang hirap kaya Che. huli nating usap ang tagal tagal nun di ba, halos isang oras ata na long distance un. and excited pa kong umuwi ng November kasi makikita ko baby mo then makikita ko rin baby ni gheena. alam mo un, two of my close friends my baby na and makikita ko kayo ng november but then, iniwan mo na kami.

cge che. sana matanggap na namin na wala ka na.. ;(

david.edward signing off.....

crying times

2010-05-24T04:50:00.000-07:00

yes, I dont cry out loud when I saw you inside the coffin. still, I can't believe that you already left all of us. that we will no longer see the cherry, our friend, whom I always visit everytime I go to Bataan. and yet, as of the moment, I can't imagine and can't accept the fact that you were already dead. I know, I still hope that you will still be there when I visit Ghee. That the three of us will laugh and make kwento about our lives. Even though we were miles apart, our friendship remains strong...

I just cried in my dreams, I am not sure if it is accepting the fact that you were already gone. Yes, I went to your house and looking for you and the truth sank in my mind that you were no longer alive. Sad.

goodbye, Che!

david.edward signing off.....

an overnight stay in Manila

2010-05-21T08:22:00.000-07:00

hay.. okay, im back here in Malaysia. been in Manila last Monday and Tuesday. yes, it was only an overnight stay in Manila.

the plane touched down Manila on Monday early morning and then leave again on Tuesday night. the reason why I went back to Manila is because I attended the funeral of my close friend. yes, I lost a very close friend.

goodbye, Che!

david.edward signing off.....

pagod ang katawang lupa

2010-05-15T04:41:00.000-07:00

from last night's shift, we went straight to the court. and had a fight with different players. for the mixed doubles, we got two games and we lost on the first game and we won on the second game. why? because of the caramel venti frapuccino with one shot of espresso. it keeps me alive and hyper. and i was really on hyper active mode those times. para lang akong lasing na magulo.. ahhaha.. now I imagined myself when I am drunk though there is no possibility as I don't drink alcohol liquor.

and also took a bath and submerged myself with lukewarm water in my bath tub. a 30 minute "me" time was enough. i had removed all my bad smell from my body. yuck! that was the effect of playing the whole morning till early afternoon.

anyways, I will sleep early today around 9 pm and will go to the office tomorrow to do some work since I will be in Manila on Monday and Tuesday..,

david.edward signing off.....

goodbye, a good friend of mine

2010-05-13T22:06:00.000-07:00

thank you for the ride. thank you for the journey during our time. thank you for the memories, for the happy and sad moments of our life together. thank you for being a part of it. i know that you are in great place right now, and that you are at peace. wherever you are be happy. worry no more. you'll be in God's hand in no time.

i know that it wont be the same again when i go back to our place. it will be different this time. i lost a friend. they lost a daughter. we lost you.

che, thanks for everything. I thank the Lord for allowing us to meet a beautiful person during our high school days and being a friend until the end. as you always say, yes, magkumpare na tayo. we will be here for your daughter.

i hope to see you for the last time. i really do.

david.edward signing off.....

modelo mode

2010-05-10T02:18:00.000-07:00

bawal na daw ang panget sa office. kaya ngayon, either panggabi or pang umaga ka, you are required to be in corporate attire minus the tie. so ibig sabihin, modelo mode activate ulit! hahaha..

so kahapon, before kami manood ng Iron Man sa pavilion sa KL, namili muna ko ng mga damit at long sleeves. all in all ang mga nabili ko? 5 long sleeves, at 4 na polo shirt. at bumili na rin ako ng additional socks ko na gagamitin para sa leather shoes.

so sa lahat ng nabili ko, magkano nagastos ko? mga kinse mil! bwahahha.. ihinto na ito.. ayoko na.. huhu.. cge, di na lang ako kakain ng mga dalawang linggo until pagdating ng sweldo. ahhaha.. ang mahal kasi ng mga damit. eh kesa naman bumili ako ng mga nandun sa mga panget na long sleeves, eh ayoko kaya. baka mamaya pare parehas pa kami ng suot ngaun.. ahahha..

so mamaya, magpapagupit kami at sana maging okay ang unang modelo mode.. lolz

david.edward signing off.....

new laptop.. new set up

2010-05-04T10:30:00.000-07:00

yef yef.. my bago akong laptop, pero hindi ung personal. office laptop po.. pinalitan na nila ung DELL Latitude na laptop ko kasi expired na ung leasing contract sa DELL. actually that was two weeks ago pa. I already sent an email na nga sa IT people na my warranty already expired and still I am using the laptop. eh pano kung masira, or mawala? hehehe..

so iyon nga, nitong hapon nauwi na ni housemate ung laptop ko from the IT. cya kasi kugn kumuha after maayos.. adik din kasi itong taga IT, sinabi ko na sa email na panggabi ako, dumaan ako ng 9 am wala pa cya, nag email sa kin asking if I can make it at 10:30 AM. so sumagot ako na nakapunta na ko dun pero wala cya. then tumawag ba naman ng 2:30 asking some questions, blah blah.. alam mo un? parang ano ba naman kuya!! I told you na I am working night shift and if your common sense serves you right, you should know na by that time I am already sleeping and taking rest. tsktsk.. then eto pa, around 3:30 he sent me a text message asking if I do have an admin rights sa pc ko. my question was a big why ask me??? can't you look at your records and check? sigh.. ewan ko ah.. ang tamad talaga.

anyways, so ngayon nandito na ko sa office pero wala pa kogn nagagawa kasi nagseset up pa rin ako ng pc ko till now. hehehe.. then my training pa tomorrow morning.. waaa.. gusto ko na umuwi.. ahahah

david.edward signing off.....

tinatamad

2010-05-03T15:22:00.000-07:00

oo.. gusto ko lang magpahinga.. gusto ko ng whole body massage tapos chillax lang after.. ung matutulog ako sa malambot kong kama na napapaligiran ng mga unan at ng comforter at ang aircon naka set sa 16 degrees lang..

sobrang pagod na sa paglilipat.. need na rin ng pahinga.. monday pa lang pero tinatamad na ko sa trabaho ko.. sana thursday na para sa friday wala akong pasok kasi naka leave ako... masakit na rin pala balikat ko, kaya ako tinatamad na.. tsktsk..

super tired...

2010-05-01T11:35:00.000-07:00

yes, I am.. and its all because of this transferring thing. I never thought that I would be this exhausted when this time came. I just thought of it as a simple move over from the old condo unit to the new unit. sigh. I was wrong.

based on the current situation, my room is almost 90 percent fixed. toiletries are in the proper place, I can use the bathroom and go out ready. my perfumes are on the mirror table together with my watches. and my clothes inside the cabinet, they are in their proper places. that is the reason why I am super tired. going to the old place to get some things and going back here is a tiring task. grr! I dont wanna do it again. and because of this so much effort in the new condo, we have decided to a minimum of two years contract. ahahhaa.. actually they said three, I said two for myself. hehehe..

our rooms are personalized. I have painted my room with color baby blue. and put some blinds and arrange the bathroom the way it could handle all my toiletries and my things. one thing missing though is my computer table. my old table can't occupy the space in my present room as it is too wide. and that is the only place that I can put it.

okay. need to log out. pictures? I will try tomorrow.

david.edward signing off.....

antok na naman

2010-04-26T14:29:00.000-07:00

oo.. antok na naman ako.. naka dalawang tasa na nga ako ng kape, ung medium size na cup ng starbucks.. pero ung kape galing d2 sa pantry kasi wala namang starbucks na malapit dito sa office..

medyo pagod pagod nitong nakaraang weekend, ang dami kasing ginawa para dun sa bahay na lilipatan namin. marami rami na rin kaming naayos at na-accomplished kumbaga. so we are expecting by end of this week, we are totally occupying the new condo unit na. and when the weekend comes, we will be sleeping over the new place na. ^_^

nakwento ko na before na I painted the wall di ba? it's now colored baby blue. I am not a painter so the paint on the wall is not that perfect. my mga lagpas.. next week pag nakalipat na kami. I will post pictures ng before and after ng room ko.. kapagod nga magpintura. di na naman pantay muscles ko sa braso... malaki na naman ung sa kanan.. ahahaha

so ung mga damit ko, nalagay ko na rin sa cabinet. and ung mga other stuff like mga documents, abubot and lahat na, naakyat ko na rin dun sa bagong unit. nag iwan na lang ako ng susuotin kong damit for this week. and my laptop na rin nandun pa rin sa current unit.

tomorrow, I'll try na maglipat pa ng ibang gamit. hehehe.. para sa weekend ung kama ko na lang ung ililipat. ;)

david.edward signing off.....

tipid mode

2010-04-22T16:28:00.000-07:00

dapat isipin ko na wala akong pera sa bangko para na rin di ko maisip na magliwaliw sa mall at kung ano ano ang bilhin ko. baka mamaya biglang pag uwi ko my bitbit na kong LCD screen or home theater, eh patay patay na naman ako nyan di ba.. hayz.. need to focus on where to save.. as I have said to myself I need to focus on where to spend my money and I will be responsible this time. That is the main reason why I got myself an Insurance Plan and Investment Plan from Manulife Philippines. kung sino my gusto, leave your message lang and I will refer you to my agent.

so un nga, naeexcite na naman kasi ako.. oo.. madami akong pera sa bangko.. hindi naman uber dami, pero tipong two months kong sweldo.. hehehe.. dumating na kasi ung sweldo ngayong buwan na ito and my bonus pang kasama na equivalent sa isang buwang sweldo.. oh ha! san ka pa.. ahhaha.. oo.. so iyon nga.. pero dapat isipin ko marami akong babayaran...

tulad na lang ng:
- credit cards ko (babayaran ko na ba ng buo or kalahati lang?)
- Insurance (need ng bayaran ang para sa kalahating taon)
- Plane ticket (going back to Pinas sa june para sa gala ng barkada)
- Condo (new appliances and payment)
- pang regalo sa kaibigan

ayan. napagod ako sa kakaisip bigla.. parang ayaw kong pakawalan pera ko tuloy bigla dahil dito. at dahil jan maganda ang naisip kong mantra.. ahahha.. para di ako gumastos.. hehehe..

so pano, magbabayad muna kami ng condo later tapos papa alam na rin sa admin na maglilipat kami sa kabilang building ng saturday or sunday. :) excited na!! ahahha

david.edward signing off.....

sunday gala

2010-04-19T02:48:00.000-07:00

gala na naman ang modelo nung linggo. lumabas kami ng bahay para tulungan sa paglilipat si housemate dun sa bago nilang unit, after namin pumunta dun dumiretso na kami sa katabing mall. una naming ginawa? masahe.. pero sarado ung shop na pinagmamasahihan namin kaya we ended up sa nail salon kasi need ko raw magpa manicure kasi ang dugyot ng tignan ng mga daliri ko.. :p

dapat manicure lang gagawin ko, itong kasama ko nagpa spa ng paa at pedicure.. sabi ko tignan ko muna ung gagawin sa kanya, then saka ko sasabihin kung gusto ko.. sabi nya libre daw nya kalahati, sabi ko oh dali game!! ahahaha..

pero before pala un, dumaan muna kami sa computer shop, bumili na naman ako ng dalawang mouse. :)

okay, tapos nung sa nail salon, next stop iyong furniture shop,.. dahil lilipat na rin kami ng bagong condo unit, naghanap na kami ng mga madadagdag na gamit sa bahay.

ang mga nabili namin? 3 door shoe rack. isang 6 feet na computer table para sa office set up namin sa bahay. isang sofa bed para sa sala. at ang aking computer chair.. magkano inabot? naka discount naman kami eh.. so cguro less than 20k in peso.. hehehe.. nagdown muna kami ng kulang kalahati.. pag dineliver na lang ung kulang.. ahahhaha..

after that, naggrocery na kami ng pagkain namin for this week. konti lang naman.. kasi we are expecting to move out on last week of April. hehehe.. :)

david.edward signing off.....

salon. mall. mouse

2010-04-19T02:37:00.000-07:00

went to Mid Valley yesterday, basically to watch Alice in Wonderland but tinamad na eh. then just had a venti mocha frap with one shot of espresso to keep me awake since wala pa kong tulog from Firday nights shift. gala muna for a while inside the mall then watched the fashion show offered by the mall since it is Fashion Week sa mall na iyon.

after that checked out the furniture shops and looked out for TV ( and we are speaking of LCD / LED's tv) and we are planning to buy one. checking from 32" or 37" inches. yabang! ahahaha..

pagkatapos naming mag ikot, we went naman sa salon.. oo, nagpa ayos ulit ako ng buhok.. ang kapal na naman kasi.. nagpagupit na rin ako and uhmmm nagpa rebond.. lolz.. wala kasi silang relax lang.. so in peso cguro umabot cya ng mga 3k.

had dinner sa Nando's. solved sa chicken. :) umuwi kami ng busog at pagod.. ^_^

special power

2010-04-14T17:06:00.000-07:00

nagbigay ng special power si amo sa kasamahan naming chekwa na di ko gusto ang attitude sa pagtatrabaho. bukod sa sobrang reklamador, ang dami dami pang sinasabi. isa pa dun iyong pagiging back stabber nya. ang galing galing.. dun ako naiinis.. sa pagiging plastic nya.. sana marunong din at bihasa ako sa ganung larangan. naimagine ko nga eh, kung boss cya dati, grabe! goodluck na lang sa mga tao nya. ahhaha

so un nga, dahil wala si kuya ngayon, cya ung senior. nagtext si amo na nagsasabing binibigyan nya ng special power itong si chekwa na mag-assign ng mga ticket / at kung my escalation man, sa kanya ibigay.. natatawa ako.. bakit? kasi ginagawa ko na yan pag wala si kuya.. pero hindi ko nga lang binobroadcast na im doing that task kasi hindi naman ako senior level.. ahahhaa..

so iyon, kanina sabi ko sa kanila wag kukuha ng ticket sa queue, lets see kung magiging equal ang ticket distribution. aba aba.. my 5 ticket sa queue, hindi nagagalaw. nag ping sa kin, sabi nya kung sinimulan ko na daw ba ung isang ticket sa queue ko, sabi ko hindi pa. sabi nya kunin daw nya.. so cge sagot lang ako ng "ok". pero ang tanong, my limang ticket sa queue, bkit sa queue ko ikaw kukuha ng ticket? oh di ba, ang galing galing ng matandang ito.. hahaha.. dahil ba madali lang iyong ticket na iyon? oo.. puede..

so sa buong gabi, ako nabawasan ko na ung ticket ko ng mga lima. cya? ganun pa rin ang bilang. my ginawa naman cyang iba. magpatulong sa kasama namin na mag ayos ng isa nyang issue.. ahahaha..

hay ewan ko talaga, ikaw na ang my kapangyarihan...

"it is not about the title under your name but how you handle such responsibilities. you can have all the titles in the world, but the question is "Are you fit on those titles?". I am proud with no title, at least my work speaks for itself. - David.Edward April 2010"

david.edward signing off.....

on coping up

2010-04-13T13:30:00.000-07:00

maybe I can get easily affected by the people around me. especially when I dont buy the idea or that we are on the opposite direction especially about work attitude. and I don't like the people who have two faces.
its something that really irritates me.

like they will act like everything is okay, but then they already escalated something to the manager - that manager who is also unaware of everything.

anyways, I think I am coping up from last weeks dilemna. I dont feel the same bad feeling anymore. so I think this is a good sign. I hope that this will continue.

"Respect is a word that needs to be earned and cannot instill on other people". David.Edward

david.edward signing off.....

leave

2010-04-12T01:08:00.000-07:00

I already filed my leaves for June. I'll be going back to Pinas and will go to Davao for a barkada trip. I need this kind of trip especially on what is happening to me lately on work. It's just that I can easily get affected by these. Oh well, maybe I expect a lot.

I am planning also to take a leave this coming Thursday and Friday. I'm gonna use my replacement leave of 1 and a half day. I need to detox. I need to release all these negative energy from inside.

so till next post. I'll try to make more kwento next time..

"I'm getting tired not because of work, but because of people." - David.Edward

david.edward signing off.....

saturday update...

2010-04-10T07:51:00.000-07:00

time check 10:46 PM and I only have 20 minutes or less sleep since last night's shift. went to work last night even if I am planning to take a Sick Leave because of what I am feeling the previous days - I am still not sure if that is depression. Anyways, went to work and handled enough tickets. had a training also with manager about the restart and what to do when application goes down.

went home at 8 AM. then, after arriving home, I still do some work. facebook after and checking some mails. 11 AM left house for the movie treat. second time to watch "Clash of the Titans". after we watched the movie, we roamed inside the mall. okay, I just spent some money again. I just bought a new headset with mic for myself to use during office hours, and also I got six pairs of socks from Hush Puppies.

I think we reached home around 7 PM, then left again at past 8 for the dimsum treat. after that, went to Yogurt ice cream shop. went to Dicey's place to copy some movies and then reached home right after.

my body is already complaining. and I need to give it a rest. so, till tomorrow.. and oh before I forgot, I also bought a new keyboard/mice from Logitect. it seems that Logitech is becoming my brand for my gadgets. I have speakers (two actually, the first one we use in the tv, and the second one here in my laptop for my gaming purposes), the laptop lap pad, the headset, the mice, and the keyboard. whats next?

david.edward signing off.....

strength-less

2010-04-09T00:07:00.000-07:00

I feel so helpless. it feels like I don't have the enough strength these days. and I also don't know why there reason I am feeling this way. I just needed a break. I have been into much work the previous weeks and days, plus the other member of the team that was uber reklamador are really getting into my nerves. I will need to pray for him to be transferred on the morning shift. sigh..

Time check: 3:02 PM, by this time I should be sleeping 2 hours ago and enjoying my rest time. but as you can see, I am still online doing this entry and ranting and ranting about my life.

I just hope that this feeling will gone the soonest possible time. I just needed a break. If I could just go to Pinas on a weekend and pamper myself there, but this is not the best time to do that. I need to save and I focus now on that aspect. I am trying to change the way I spend my money.

I really hope Lord God that this will go away soon. I will file a leave on Monday. why? just needed a break. If not Monday, I'll take Friday. Since there will be lot of tickets on Monday, maybe I will do this on Friday. I don't want the team to feel the burden of the tickets, unless that one uber reklamador will be left and I am willingly left all those tickets to him - without a heart and an evil laugh. ahaha

"People are born kind hearted. It is the people around them who makes them bad" - David.Edward

david.edward signing off.....

one on one

2010-04-08T09:11:00.000-07:00

my manager talked to me this morning. well, it was the scheduled quarterly meet. whatever I want to say daw to the management, I can tell him. It was my chance to tell them what I feel and would like the management to know. But that meeting was an informal one.

first, I told him that I still need training on webMethods. I cannot support the application 100 percent as I am not that sure of myself in supporting the said application. he said to send me an email of what training I need to attend.

second, I told him about the work environment. kasi nga di ba, we dont have permanent seat here in the office, and the cubicles we are using was alloted for other team. And whenever they are here na in the office, we need to evacuate. now, who would be inspired in the said scenario?

continuing the story since I draft it when I left the office this morning.

I also told him about our other officemate that was uber reklamador. and that he doesn't have a free will to get ticket from the queue. he won't bother, cause for him tickets more than five under his name are already beyond his limit. sigh..

and about me, he asked me to document about the application I support. he already asked me if I have any documents or all the knowledge is just inside my brain, I told him that I had a document already and it was given to other two members of the team, that whenever I am not around and something went wrong, they can check the application.

and also, he told me that the management did not allow me to have an above expectation rating for last year. why? because for them I am still new and that my experience wont give me that AE grade. and my manager told me don't take it negatively. honestly speaking? I don't care what they say. As far as I am good with my own standards and I meet them, I do feel good. I know the business. I don't expect to be recognize. I am not thirsty for it. Respect is a word you need to earn. Recognition is another thing.

and lastly, dont ever talk in tagalog if ever we do have any issue. so that this one person in the team can participate. what my mind telling me? whenever we asked him, he would always say - "I do not know".

now you judge..

david.edward signing off.....

condo hunting

2010-04-05T01:45:00.000-07:00

we been doing the said task for the past weeks. searching every site that we stumbled in the net would give us a result or two, but still it is one tough job to look for a place that will suite what you want and a place to called home.

this condo that we are staying right now I can say that it is the most convenient condo I have ever been. the bus stop is just outside the guard house. the supermarket is across the street when you use the back gate. you can walk going to the train station when you need to go to work.

we viewed two units today. one for the other condo and one here at endah. we dont like the other unit but we love the one here in the same condo. but this one is located on the 18th floor. but who would'nt love the view of KL? the Petronas right? I'm sure this will give you different kind of lights that the city will offer.

I just hope we can negotiate further on the price. so need to sleep first because dont have yet sleep for tonight's work.

/start.update
we already met the owner and he is also from the IT world. ^_^
anyways, we haggled some issues on the house like repainting of the door frame, telephone line (which is very very important to our work), and other things to make the house comfortable to live with.
the price - it is still the same. RM 1500. so we will be moving at the end of this month, and by that time the reconstruction is completed.
/end.update

david.edward signing off.....

busy sunday

2010-04-04T02:25:00.000-07:00

today is sunday and tomorrow will be Monday again which means my pasok na naman sa work. and my mga dapat pa kong gawin before Monday, and it's still about work. feeling ko kasi tambak trabaho sa queue ko and I need to clean my queue up.

last night, 7 PM pa lang di na kaya ng katawan ko, kaya after taking fruits for late merienda, nasa loob na ko ng kweba at natutulog. sobrang pagod na ng katawang lupa and need na magpahinga. woke up around 7 am kanina. sobrang pagod ko na and need bumawi ng katawan ko mula sa stress at pagod from last week's work.

kanina after we had lunch, nagswimming kami sa pool. cguro tumagal din kami ng more than hour sa pool. tapos videoke ulit dito sa bahay. okay na rin iyong ganung bisyo kapag weekend, at least hindi magastos.

so mamaya pagkagaling sa pupuntahan naming house warming, I'm gonna start working again and remove all the tickets from my queue. and i hope di ako tamarin dahil may mga documents din akong dapat gawin.

so pano? till next time!

david.edward signing off.....

sabado na!

2010-04-02T16:43:00.000-07:00

yep yep!!! sabado na! at isa lang ang ibig sabihin nyan.. tapos na ang pagiging on call ko for this week.. hayz.. buti na lang!! next schedule after three weeks pa ata. whew! buti makakapahinga na din..

kahapon, 5 na naman ata ako nakatulog kasi ung server namin napupuno na naman... so nagkaroon kami ng event. and meron ding mga customer na nagsesend ng test id sa production server. ang cute di ba? pano kaya yun. medyo masakit pa likod ko. di ko alam kung kulang ba ito sa tulog or need ko na rin magpa masahe ulit.

my viewing kami ng condo later, sana maging maayos naman ang matino pa rin. I really hope makahanap kami ng matinong bahay this time. well, I'm not saying na hindi matino condo namin ngayon but I am looking for much better. work. madami pa din. ganun pa din naman.. I think for this coming weekend I am still gonna work, kung di ako tamarin at di kumanta sa magic sing. lolz

so till dito muna.. nagugutom na naman ako.. nung isang araw nga 2 days na pala ko hindi kumakain ng kanin kaya ang init na ng ulo ko, puyat pa.. sama sama na kumbaga.. ang hirap din ng ganun.. and need ko talaga kumain ng kanin everyday. di ko kaya ng wala. :p

sa uulitin!

david.edward signing off.....

work.. work.. and still work..

2010-04-01T01:54:00.000-07:00

at dahil birthday ni kuya sherwin, nagtreat cya ng movie sa Gardens sa my KL. at anong movie? cyempre, Clash of the Titans, first showing day sa Gold Class..

pero another entry ko na lang iyon. busy pa rin ang work schedule, di pa rin nakakabawi sa pagbagsak ng sistema nung isang linggo. dami na ring naririnig mula sa higher management na mga panget na comment dahil sa naganap. oh well. that is life. nakaka depressed lang minsan when you think that you are doing your best but still they see the bad effect not recognizing the effort you've made, okay, correct me, they know how to appreciate naman pala, if not because of us no one will be able to help to bring up the service. pero still pa rin, we came to the point na naeemphasize ung negative impact. because at the end of the day, it is still business..

thanks god thursday na! late ako kagabi. dahil ako ang on-call, late na ko nakatulog. 5 PM ang start ng diretsong tulog ko. ang ginawang call ng Service Desk - 1:00 PM, 2:30 PM and 4:00 PM. sinong tao ang makakatulog ng matino sa paggising ng ganyang oras? tell me.. kaya ako nabadtrip na. kasi di na ko makatulog na matino.

and the movie treat today is kinda a reliever sa napa toxic na linggong ito.. quota na kung quota. ang recorded time ko for the past few days from Sunday's work is sakop na till Friday, lagpas pa. oh ha! san ka pa!!!

anyways, buti na nga lang thursday na and sana makapag pahinga ng matino sa sabado.. ay hindi pa rin pala, my viewing kami ng condo kasi naghahanap kami ng malilipatan na mas mura. and gagawa pa kami ng recovery documentation.. sana di ako tamarin.. hayz..

so pano, ligo muna ko bago matulog.. sana ung apat na oras na tulog ko ngaun, dire diretso at walang magulo na Service Desk.. bwahahha..

david.edward signing off.....

sleeping is a privilege nowadays

2010-03-30T15:58:00.000-07:00

almost 7 am here on my laptop's clock and yes, I am sleepy. How many hours of sleep did I have yesterday? Four. Yes, only four hours of sleep. why? We went home around past 11:30, the bus got stranded because the door wont open from the inside, so they called the terminal to send another one. its been quarter to 12 when we left the complex. the driver forgot our destination, instead of taking one bus stop (our destination) he headed straight to the final bus stop in the city. I went in front of the bus and asked him, he said - Sorry. yes, as always. Sorry..

he took the highway and then made a U turn. went back to our bus stop.
reached home at around 12:30 PM. had lunch and read some mails from my office laptop.

1:30 PM, I opened my personal laptop and played Generals. I need to detox.
2:30 PM, I laid down on my bed and tried to sleep.
7:00 PM, Russ called me to open the door since it was locked from the inside.
after that, I opened my office pc again and downloaded mails. read it. and shut it down again.

8:30 at the condo's guard house waited for the taxi that brought us here in the office.
9:00 PM, met with our manager and went to some place to have a team dinner because our contractors are leaving on Wednesday.

11:00 PM went back to the office. start of work.
and now, I am sleepy.

david.edward signing off.....

tired and depressed

2010-03-29T07:46:00.000-07:00

okay, honestly speaking I'm kinda tired of what we did yesterday regarding the server upgrade. and up to now I still don't have the complete rest from Sunday morning. last night during our conversation, I feel asleep around 03:20 AM, so I wasn't able to send out the final bulletin and my manager is the one who sent that. I am a little ashamed of what happened, which is I should be the one doing it but then because I fell asleep, my manager did it.

I slept around quarter to five in the morning, and I was really dead tired during that time and all I wanna do is crawl from the living room going to my bed inside my room. After sleeping for about 10 minutes, the Service Desk called me because of an event in our servers. sigh. yes, I am tired but since there is an issue I need to fix it. So I went back to the living room and checked all the details that I can checked but I am did not see any issue. So I asked for help, while lying down on the sofa I haven't noticed that I fell asleep again. yes, I was really really tired.

At 8:00 AM, I went back on my bed to continue my sleep. Woke up at 2:45 PM, I'm not sure if I am just hungry or my sleep cycle is complete. But if you will compute the time span, I only have more or less 6 hours of sleep. I went to the kitchen and grabbed some food to eat. Checked my office emails and had some chit chat with friends in the office.

I tried to go back to sleep right after but to no avail. I played generals on my laptop and then at 6 PM I am back in my dreamland. 7 PM my housemate called my mobile since we planned to go in the office early because of the number of tickets in our queue.

so at around 8:30 I was already in the office sending mails and responding to them. had my "breakfast" at the resto in front of the office. and now I'm back to work again..

hectic? yes, all I wanna do is go back to my bed and sleep. had a vacation. recharge. I feel depressed of what happened. sigh..

my Lord God, please help me..

david.edward signing off.....

work work work

2010-03-28T10:36:00.000-07:00

time check: 1:30 AM, but yet still online for the support task. my hindi matapos tapos sa ginagawang update ng servers.. hay.. antok na ko.. naka idlip nga ako eh, nagping ung amo ko sa sarili kong window (hindi dun sa chat window kasama nung mga nag install) at buti naalimpungatan ako.. hay.. pagod na ko.. more than 12 hours ng gising..

nakapanood na ko ng youtube, nabasa ko na ang mga balita at kung ano ano pa. so ngayon need ng matapos iyong ginagawa nila bago kami makatulog ng payapa.

sana, I pray to God na wala sanang maging issue this week dahil ako ang on call..

david.edward signing off.....

palm sunday

2010-03-28T07:58:00.000-07:00

yep, my palaspas na kami sa bahay. we bought it sa labas ng simbahan kanina, hugis cross nga eh.. then the church also gave some, so kumuha din ako and that is why I have two on my room's door. medyo napa-aga lang ung dating namin sa church kasi 10:30 AM pala ung misa but then past 10 AM pa lang nandun na kami sa KL. hehehe

grabe! daming pinoy sa labas ng simbahan. dami nilang tinitinda na kung ano ano.. it was like you're still in Pinas. dami ko ngang nabiling food na kakanin eh, I bought turon, karioka, and kalamay. mga 18 pieces ata un lahat... hehehe..

after that we had lunch sa Chilis, tapos umuwi na because of work - on call ang lolo nyo this week kaya ayun. pagdating ng house, nakapag work na din..

and until now na 10:55 PM na online and connected pa rin ako sa VPN ng office because of the patch that the Platform Teams are doing. inaantok na ko actually, 14 hours na kong gising.. and gusto ko pa maglaro sa pc ko.. hayz..

sana matapos na ito and pag natulog ako tonight, sana walang maging issue. hehehe
pagod na.. hehehe

david.edward signing off.....

im still up at this time

2010-03-27T03:25:00.000-07:00

gising pa rin ako till now.. anong oras na? past 6 PM na. ano ba ginawa ko? kasi di ba kahapon nga I have the full cycle of 9 hours so when I got in the office and I have an Incident issue, gising talaga ako till umaga.. the time I got in around 12:30, the first time na tumayo ako and went sa CR was around 6:00 AM na.

ang tagal kong ginawa iyong investigation na iyon. ang laki kasi ng issue and bago sa akin.. pasensya, nabobo ako dun ah.. pero my sense of accomplishment na rin kasi natapos namin and I hope maresolve.

naka idlip naman ako sa bus kanina while going home mga 15 minutes din ata iyon, then nag videoke ulit dito sa bahay at nag lunch, after that nag open ng laptop at nagdownload ng office mails..

around 4 naman ng hapon, nag aya ako para magpamasahe.. hehehe.. ayun, okay naman.. grabe si kuya, ang sakit sobra ng mga diin ng masahe nya.. para akong mababalian ng buto.. binali pa nya katawan at tumunog talaga.. lolz.. pero di na ko nagpamasahe ng butt kasi naman natakot na ko sa mga nagmasahe sa akin before.. nagka phobia na ata ako.. dami kong kiliti sa hita.. ahhaha

so pano, gising pa ko till now so work mode muna.. ;)

david.edward signing off.....

late! ulit..

2010-03-26T10:25:00.000-07:00

okay, I woke up late.. pasensya naman.. pagod po kasi ang katawang lupa.. nakatulog ako kahapon ng hapon na, mga 1:30 PM, kasi pagdating nga sa bahay I did some work pa. so from 1:30 na pagtulog nagising na ko ng 10:35 PM, kung hindi pa ko kinatok sa kwarto ko hindi pa ko magigising.. hahaha.. pagod talaga..

anyways, so un nga, hindi ko na naabutan ung bus na 10:55 so nakaalis ako ng bahay before 11:30 and nasa bus stop na ko ng 11:40, dumating ang bus ng 11:50, kaya lang naglakad ako papasok sa office from the bus stop, kasi ang layo ng inikot nya, parang di nya alam na sa ibang bus stop ako dapat bumaba.. hay.. badtrip!

so un, ngayon 15 tickets on my queue.. kailangan matapos na ito till tomorrow. ^_^
so pano trabaho muna.. tapos na ung dinownload ko sa FTP server.. basa muna ng logs..

david.edward signing off...

quota na!

2010-03-25T20:32:00.000-07:00

oo, quota na ko sa ticket.. hahaha.. naka 7 or 8 tickets yata ako kagabi, and those are normal service call tickets, meaning tao ang nag open nun at hindi system generated tickets.. cute cute.. at meron pang sumasideline sa email ko na pkicheck ang ganito, ganyan... buti na lang curacha lolo mo.. cool lang.. chillax kumbaga.. ahahha.. pero kumain talaga ako ng saktong 3 AM.. mahirap na, baka magaya ulit ung nung isang araw. di kami muna kumain ng 3 AM aba, 11 AM na kami nakakain.. cute cute...

so iyon, umuwi ako ng maaga, 8 AM pa lang umuwi na ko which is equivalent sa 5 PM ng normal daytime worker. pero still I opened my laptop when I got home and still did some work.

so ngayon, maglalalaro muna ko ng Generals bago matulog.. hheheheh..

david.edward signing off....

busy busy-han

2010-03-25T09:15:00.000-07:00

and dahil sa nangyari last night na kung saan bumagsak ang application namin, as in no messages are coming in and out of our system, bumabaha kami ngaun ng trabaho and I mean the tickets assigned to us.

currently on my queue upon checking - 19. wala muna sanang dumating at matapos ko ito ngaun (a big HOPE). ang laki ng issue kasi walang nagprocess na mga messages kagabi eh..

so ngaun, DND muna status ko sa mga messenger ko, either Y!M or MOC.
so pano trabaho muna...

david.edward signing off......

still at the office

2010-03-24T23:19:00.000-07:00

hay nku naman.. sa di inaasahang pagkakataon, nagkaroon kami ng major na issue.. anong major? bumagsak lang naman ang buong application.. walang pumapasok at lumalabas na messages.. lahat ng shipment apektado.. walang lilipad na eroplano at walang aalis na barko kapag di napadala ang mga messages.. hayz..

hay.. more than 12 hours in the office.. kapagod.. sakit sa utak.. hay.. thank you lord sa gift. at least kahit papano nakatulong naman sa pagtotroubleshoot..

so ngaun, uuwi na at magpapahinga.. mamaya bahala na kung what time kami magigising.. hehehe.. late kung late..

uwi muna kami..
david.edward signing off...

i told you

2010-03-24T01:55:00.000-07:00

i told you from my previous post that I have a sleeping disorder and after an hour of sleep, I'm awake again.. I wanna cry, cry, and cry.. nakakainis naman kasi.. all i want is to have a complete sleep everyday pero sa di ko malamang dahilan nagigising ako.. I know one reason is pag gutom ako, pero kumain na ko but still can't go back to sleep. nakakainis.. so mamaya malamang tulog tulog na naman ako sa shift ko nito.. hayz.. ano ba kasi.. wag nyo naman ako isipin sa mga ganitong oras.. ahahaha.. di ako makatulog eh.. sa gabi nyo na lang ako isipin para magising na ko.. ahaha.. nag aadik na naman ako.. hayz..

my gagawin lang ako sa net then I'll try to go back to sleep. mabigat na rin naman iyong likod ko plus the fact that I also need to sleep. how can I work tonight kung kulang kulang ako sa tulog? pano ko ququota sa mga ticket ko??

oh cya, tulog ulit..
david.edward signing off

abnormal sleep

2010-03-23T22:18:00.000-07:00

sleep.. all of us wants to have of it everyday, well we should be at least consuming 8 hours of it to have our strength to go back and act as a normal person. a minimum of four hours to do the RPM or the rapid eye movement.

I have an abnormal sleeping habit. since I work at night and I am awake in the morning, i dont usually enjoy the benefits of having a good 8 hour sleep.

my sleeping habit? I usually gets home around 9 or 10, then take my breakfast and then check my mails, facebooks, lastly play Generals. so i sleep around 1 or 2 PM. and sometimes, it is only 6 PM but my body is already awake and like ready to work again.. well, yeah. I am having issues with that, but I tried to go back to sleep most of the time. and wake up again at 10 PM.

and my other places of sleeping? at the bus, going to work and going back home. sabi nga nila, para-paraan lang yan.. and also, workplace is not an excuse. but what to do? I need to take a power nap so that I can go back to normal.

well, this time I need to sleep na.. till next time!
david.edward signing off...

im back!!!

2010-03-22T22:19:00.000-07:00

im back here at Blogger.. so should i say, welcome back D.E!!! lolz...

okay, okay, let me explain why i went back here in Blogger from my newly created wordpress acount.
first, everything was already set. the theme and the new posts - actually I only got two.. hehehe

what are the issues I encountered? I cannot put javascript in the themes / widgets. the javascript, I let go of that. the bible verses, the cbox, and the other widgets that uses javascript. its fine with me. the last thing that made me go back to blogger was the themes!!!

i found a new theme in the internet and would love to use that on my wordpress blog but to my dismay, wordpress doesn't allow changing of themes for free blogs hosted by them. okay! and that's it! i called it quits.

but before that, I am thinking of hosting my wordpress site to a web host and willing to pay some money for the hosting job. but there's already a lot of inconveniences on my side, I decided to stop and go back here in Blogger.

and my biggest problem???? the new URL name!! nyay.. davidedward in blogspot is already taken, so after thinking of more than 5 hours - after doing work and some videoke sessions, i came up with the name "a piece of david".

why? because you'll be reading my life. some information that I will share to you my dear readers. and by doing that, it means that you took a part of me when you close your browser. nah, sweet! ahahha..

so, I guess that would be all. I'm back here in Blogger and let's start to party on my new blog!!

this is david.edward signing off!